<3 bittersweet

:):

2010-09-30T07:35:00.000-07:00

i'm that girl that is always happy, the one who never has problems and when i do, they don't get to me. everyone sees me as the one they can count on to put a smile on their face cause as far as they know, i always have one on mine. but no one looks any deeper than that.
-anonymous

and sometimes no one looks deeper than that.

cheersandloves,
smilesmilesmile. xinhui. smile.

smiling.

2010-09-07T09:36:00.000-07:00

broke down,
am just trying to pick the pieces up again.
i guess being cheerful all the time has its price to pay.
and sometimes it just doesnt seem fair anymore.
and sometimes, having a smile 24/7 doesn't really reflect what's within.
but yes, am still gonna stay strong,
for what i have been holding on for so long.

2010-08-31T06:42:00.001-07:00

everything lately has just been sad.

2010-08-28T07:04:00.001-07:00

and i don't even want to think about it anymore.
dont want to think about it. at all.

2010-08-27T05:17:00.000-07:00

at a loss. is prolly a word i would describe the state i am in now.
and if only this was all a dream.
i want desperately to escape reality.
cause it's turning my world upside down.
not gonna think about it.
cause worrying wont help. would it.
i guess i should just not care. i guess. it wouldnt solve anything,
not that anything can be solved.
i should just hang out with myself. and only myself. well. at least people don't get pissed.

disappointed, yeah most prollly.

2010-08-18T08:26:00.000-07:00

i have almost no idea what the world is becoming now.
totally disappointed.
friends turning into strangers.
people you never knew becoming your best of friends
and i truly wanted to believe in you, but you made me lose my faith.
i guess they say only in an crisis will you know who your friends really are.
and to those that have stayed, thank you.
thank you for being there when i needed you the most.
thank you for tolerating with me all this while.
thank you for all you have done.
thank you.
i know i havent been the best that i can be,
but you know what, i've tried my best.
and to those friends if you ever need me, i am just a call and a msn convo away.
and to that certain someone,
don't worry so much kay, CHEER UP DUDE!
and you know what, i am really just a call away, let's jiayous for this EOYS and prove them wrong.
prove them that you can do so much so much better.
prove them that you are not what they say.
prove to them that you deserve to do whatever you wnat.
and rmb my logic?
ahhaaha have been trying to convince you since forever, but it jsut wont pull through XD
but yeah, being sad for something that is over won't help.
so why not be happy and do something that is worth your time :D
i know this is gonna be a hard and long and sad period of time,
but you know waht you have 6 weeks of freedom without their intervention or whatsoever,
so look forward to it :D
AND REALLY CHEER UP DUDE:D LOVE YOU ALWAYS!

heh just went for YOG stuff, was so awesome.
I LOVE BEING NEUTRAL XD
heh, and having epic convos with the people around me ,
and all that screaming from audrey and xinyi was truly epic.
everytime the someone scored,
the two people beside me would go ahhhhhh. heh:D
and then i rmb at the end we didnt even know the match ended,
and were like totally clueless, and totally lag,
and like the sudden realisation that thailand won made xinyi and audrey scream,
but that was after everyone had already cheered and whatnots XD
ohohhohoh and thee getting almost lost part when we were trying to find MRT.
three lu chi totally SHOULD NOT stay together at night,
without knowing where to go,
cause in the end all of us will just get lost XD
heh, and i loveeee going home with people staying in cck!
-idk but talking on the bus/MRT is always fun :D-
heh xinyi is my new going home/bus partner after fangmin(:
hmm thats about alll i guesss :D am feeling rather sleeplyyy noww,

cheersandloves,
xinhui

we'll walk this road together through the storm
whatever weather, cold or warm
just lettin' you know that you're not alone
holla if you feel like you've been down the same road;

fake.so fake.

besties(:

2010-07-25T07:31:00.000-07:00

Best friends hang tough. They don't come with ‘Fragile’ stickers and are not easily scared off, or ticked off. Best friends help you out whenever they can, make time for you even when they don't have any, and trust your friendship enough to say ‘No’. Best friends are cross-your-heart-and-hope-to-die, good-times-and-bad-times, borrow-anything, tell-you-everything, trust-you-with-their-deepest-darkest-secrets, always-and-forever friends.

hope

2010-07-11T07:48:00.001-07:00

She was sad though. But it was a hopeful kind of sad. The kind of sad that just takes time
-The perks of being a wallflower

hee (((;

2010-07-08T05:49:00.000-07:00

hello blog!
this whole week has been well, mentally and physically draining T.T
bleh ): sleepping at 1 everyday and waking up at 5 everyday..
and so many stuff to do, so many things to think about.
hahas but somehow am quite happy these two days :D
has been very long since i felt this way~
well at least nothing has gone horribly wrong. yet.
wee~ OMO! :D omo is the best whee(:
hahas like they say, everything could go horribly wrong, but right now it feels just right.
:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

ah hahas enough of rambles,
though i could ramble on forever and forever.
till the next time i have time..

cheersandloves,
:D xinhui!

we're just dancing, singing, laughing, crying, living, dying,
thriving, striving, walking, sleeping, stalking, playing, losing,
winning, kissing, spinning, running. We're all just growing up.

ailen world.

2010-07-06T06:35:00.000-07:00

i want to cry. but the tears just will not come out.
am getting further and further away from everything that seemed so near a moment ago.
and sometimes i really wonder.
those people that i used to think i would make great friends with
all of a sudden turned their backs on me,
its like a nightmare, but truth is its reality.
i want to cry. but my heart's already crushed. what's the use of crying.
just because we used to share good memories doesnt make us good friends.
i've learned it the hard way.
it didnt take much to prove myself right.
i just wished this is a nightmare, and when i wake up tmr morning
everything would be just how it used to be. how it used to be.
how everything actually seemed normal.
if life was like that for me, i'll actually consider what i thought was impossible.

i've had enough.
on the verge of breaking.
i just want to hide somewhere someplace right now.

xinhui.

just tell me why i was never good enough. you owe me that much.

39.2 degrees.);

2010-07-03T06:36:00.000-07:00

hello blog(:

39.2 degrees-.-
gosh i must be so suay to actually get a fever while SHOPPING ))):.
gah, the whole world feels so cold right now.
man, the medicine is getting me way to drowsy.
but i want to watch the match today -____-
gah. stay awake. dont sleep.
and fever, fever pls go away.

and pardon my incoherence, my brain is not functioning -___-

cheersandloves,
fever):, xinhui )))):

The more you fake the harder you fall.
- The Simple Life by My Favorite Highway

-not going to put a sad smiley here-

2010-07-02T08:36:00.000-07:00

hello blog(:
have been reflecting a lot today.. with some people..
and well am just glad to have lovely friends around(:
sorry if i made you worried or anything, but was just a little emotional
am really okay now
hahas and jiachee, thank you a lot,
no doubt that you are my friend for what hmm, 5 years? HAHAS, cant rmb when we first met already XD
and yuemin: ily man (: and i love talking on the phone wee~
just a big sorry to everyone that i made you worry,
i didnt mean too, sorry.

~~不准哭。不准哭~~。但我还是哭了。

cheersandloves,
xinhui.

Things break all the time. Days break, waves break,
voices break. Promises break. Hearts break.
- Jodi Picoult

D; D;

2010-07-01T04:07:00.000-07:00

))): gah.
words cannot express how afraid i am right now.
and as what i have told amelia: somehow i rather stand in front of the whole school and give an impromptu speech then ahhhhh ):

okay neoxinhui STOP FREAKING OUT OKAY.
nerves are slowly getting to me, and i am just );
ahh okay like always : just keep holding on. and stay strong.

cheerrsandlove
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh xinhui!

"When you’re struggling with something,
look at all the people around you and realize that
every single person you see is struggling with something,
and to them, it’s just as hard as what you’re going through"

JIAYOUS FLYING CHICKENS (:

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!

2010-06-28T06:22:00.000-07:00

for now, i'll just post a little quote,
i'll post soon i promise, but right now, this feeling, its engulfing me. -__-

The opposite of love isn't hate. It's indifference. If you hate someone, you still care.
[Desperate Housewives]

and "indifference is always the friend of the enemy".

cheersandloves,
inspiring? xinhui

hilarious?

2010-06-22T08:00:00.000-07:00

i wonder if there's a limit to how much one can hate.

Sticks and stones are hard on the bones,
aimed with anger and art.
Words can sting like anything,
but silence breaks the heart.

HAPPY BIRTHDAYS!

2010-06-21T09:54:00.000-07:00

OH I JUST REALISED THAT AMELIA'S BRO HAS THE SAME BIRTHDAY AS MY BRO,
AND YONGHWA'S BIRTHDAY IS TMR TOO :D
weeee HAPPYYY:D

okay this one for you BRO:

HAPPY BIRRTHDAYYY JINGYONG :D
somehow i miss you :D :D
and seee ya tmr :D :D :D

OKAY AND THIS ONE IS FOR Y~ONG :

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YO~ONG OPPA
jungyonghwa is the loveee :D

cheersandloves,
xinhui~! did i mention that i love birthdays :D

Sending birthday blessings filled with love and peace
and joy wishing sweetest things happen right before your eyes ~

.___________.

2010-06-17T20:49:00.001-07:00

so out of touch with everything. gosh.

happy(:

2010-06-10T09:03:00.001-07:00

Happy is waking up in the morning and realizing you have three hours left to sleep. Happy is going in a pool on a hot summer day. Happy is finishing a project after weeks of procrastination. Happy is being out with friends and not having a care in the world. Happy is taking a warm shower on a cold day. Happy is having hot chocolate after shoveling snow. Happy is being held by you.

the result of looking through xanga :D

): (:

2010-06-06T08:42:00.000-07:00

hello blog!

long time no post!

am really -i dont know what this feeling is- right now.

mp attachment schedule finally came,

and i dont know to be happy or to be sad. honestly.

and SO SORRY AMELIA!

really, A THOUSAND APOLOGIES! >.< will make up for it somehow:D

and i really dont know what this feeling is either.

and to a certain someone,

they really ahhh. ): ):

-speechless-

dont wish to comment on this further...
but really,
if you would just stop, the whole world would be at peace,
but would you?

moving on to more happy stufff,

since yuemin is happily in shanghai now and wont see this.

SILVERRINGGSSS FTWWWW<3333

larisa :D :D

outing with larissa IS AWESOME.

we went into major shoppping mood, and like bought (quite a lot of stuff)

and trying to look for the most affordable box (in orchard) was damm funny XD

almost toured the whole of orchard,

and then went to plaza singapura in the end,

i still find this really funny.

and our cheap plastic moodring XD

its 6.50 thats why it leaked, larisa.

LARISA WE TOTALLY NEED TO HAVE ONE MORE OUTING SOO.

- oh wait we already do :D - :D :D

okay i really should stop ranting on,

but i have one more person i want to talk about.

JUNG YONGHWAAA<333

he's super hot + cute and everything you wanttt <233

he makes my mood go from bleh to WEEEE <3333

he's almost on the same level as yooguen alreadyy

gosh, he's just damm hot.

:D:D and comics connection had better have stuff regarding him soon<333

or quoted from amelia " shall stop going to cc"

but i dont think its even possible :D

ahh YONGHWAAA<333 fighting!

oh yes, and pioneer training,

shall pray that the next training will be okay( somehow, someway)

ahh am really really very very stressed. ):

but ah wells. stay strong. be strong.

OH AND ANOTHER THING.

(i really have a lot of things happening right now XD)

BSP CAMP WAS AWESOMEEE!!

made many new friends,

and laughed A LOT, like super a lot with dilysis throughout the whole camp!

REALLY WAS SUPER FUNNY!

especially all the epic dancing/acting parts XD

BUT AH WELLS: shi san jian ke loveee<3

WE ROCK :D

i should really end now,

till the next time i have time

cheersnadloves,

dontmesswithus! <3, xinhui

Life has only three guarantees. Smiling will brighten your face,
laughing will enhance your eyes, and falling in love will change your life.

ironic.

2010-05-27T03:45:00.000-07:00

am in a state of confusion.
am just glad school holidays are finally here.
at least i finally feel like i get to breathe.
but a whole lot things to do. a whole lot things to settle.
looking from a positive side, at least life will be exciting. ( hopefully)

finally got time to have a get together with old friends.
ahh i miss larisaaaa!
starbucks was awesome.
cause we just talked and talked and talked.
but then in the middle.... XD okay shant talk about the embarrassing stuff. XD
and note to avril ( even though you dont read blogs): you owe me my KFC OKAY! + bubble tea!
( and i rmb ;D) - not so gullible anymore :D-
- and i've grown to not be so gullible already okay :D :D :D :D-
somehow i still miss when you guys stole my lucky bubble thing. :/
so conclusion: kellin,avril,larisa,yuemin, we NEED to have a gathering SOON.
-NUDGES YUEMIN HERE- :D :D

Oh yes, and i rmb someone's birthday is cominggggggg. :D
shall celebrate for her during camp. and like uhm SCARE HER. ( if its possible XD)
yay i know i rock:D
and miss birthday who is going to come soon, uhmuhm, what do you wantttt?? :/
another scrapebook??? :D:D
ran out of ideas on what to give to you, really.
and if you see this, you can come and hint me on what you want :D:D

hmm, shall just end of here for the moment,
will post whenever i have the time :D
note to self: start thinking happy. you need it.

cheersandloves,
holidays! xinhui!

The feeling of being "okay" does not imply that the person has risen above all his faults and emotional problems, it merely implies that he refuses to be paralyzed by them.

just don't stop.

2010-05-26T08:13:00.000-07:00

you guys are the ones that keep me going. (:
thank you. <3
thankyou for being there when i most needed it.
thankyou for tolerating all my nonsense and whatnots
thank you, for ever being so nice and niceee :D
and a huge thank you, for being there, when the rest of the world walks out.
thankyou(:
and starbucks session again soon:D

cheersandloves,
thankyou, xinhui.

"Promise you won't forget me, because if I thought you would, I'd never leave."
~Winnie the Pooh~

):

2010-05-25T06:18:00.000-07:00

on the verge of tears,
but the tears just won't fall.

worst feeling in the world : doing so badly, when you knew you could do better.
i just feel like i'm having a internal struggle within,
and it hurts.
i feel like i a failure is more than one way.
sorry to all those i have caused so much trouble.
ahh its really ): ): ):..

neoxinhui, stay strong. cause you have to.

words are easy to say/write or whatsoever, when in reality.............

cheersandloves,
):

Ohana means family, family means nobody gets left behind. Or forgotten.

it gets better(:

2010-05-24T03:02:00.000-07:00

If you ever feel like you wanna die,
think of all those things that make you smile
and live for those things.

yesyes, hello blog:D
to all those that have been feeling under the weather, one word for you all,
actually two words " CHEER UP".
when've you hit rock bottom, at least you know everything's gonna get better.
i don't know what to comment about whatever that is happening now but,
ah wells, i guess things can only get better right:D
and one thing that we have gained now, at least we all bonded during the process right :D
andand another piece of advice, when you are feeling down, SLEEP.
it worrks okay. after having lots of sleep, you will feel so good, you won't feel sad anymore:D

life has been well, rather enjoyable, at the very least,
when i sleep i won't have nightmares about all the SIAS and assignments!
and yeah, have been taking the time to catch up on all the sleep i have been missing (:
like how i finally managed to sleep at 10:00pm yesterday(:
shall take this week to rest while i can,
cause when the holidays finally start, its' gonna be one busy month.

on another note, i really think talking with batchies on msn is so amusing and fun:D
especially when you are talking with people like xinyi and cherie and like aiya everyone else.
they make the whole conversation so funny, especially boiling veges one, i guess(:
lols and yes, melissa you have really long legs! :D :D :D
- at this point, i realise my post is mainly bits and pieces here and there,
and i realise i have not done yuedubaogao. *faints in horror*-
shall just end here and go do yuedubaogao:D

cheersandloves,
xinhui:D

Don't worry too much about what other people are saying about you.
We all have opinions you know.
(C) CUTEQTS.

blogged.

2010-05-19T09:51:00.000-07:00

hello blog(:

things that have been happening this few days,

have been well, crazy.

so many stuff, and my brain can only take in so much.

now that i have experienced how busy life can get, it simply scares me.

and now that i have experienced how scary life can get, it's simply troubling.

life has been well a consistent sleeping at 1am everyday since week 8 started.

though there is homework ban, its just scary to think of homework coming

all at once during june holidays. even though i am happy for the homework ban,

but to think about it, it might just not-be-so-nice once everything comes back. gosh O:

and i think i am growing numb to getting back results,

it's like when i get back, i look at it, and i dont know why, but it doesnt really affect me.

its just stress i think, thinking about all the future commitments and whatnots to complete,

ah, life isnt going to be smooth-sailing.

if i thought term 2 was bad, term 3's gonna be worse.

and really its just bad to think about the future, when the present is just O:

another reason why this few weeks have been overwhelming, blogs.

shan't elaborate, but batchies you get what i mean.

this quote summarises it all up:

" Speak when you are angry, and you'll get the best speech you'll ever regret"

and the last reason why this few weeks have been overwhelming, feelings, relationships.

i don't know why, but human relationships have been troubling.

gah, it's just sad to see the state it is in now.

could have been worse,

but, i don't know, nothing seems to be helping.

but, we'll just see how it goes, right?

it's bettter than adding oil to the fire.

but one thing is certain,

we need to talk, soon, face to face.

cheersandloves,

..........xinhui.

The opposite of love is not hate, its apathy, it's feeling nothing.

Hate is at least something, it shows you have a heart even if it's cold and dark.

sometimes, even if someone hates you.

think positive,

be glad you matter so much, that they care enough to hate you.

abstract.

2010-05-12T08:57:00.000-07:00

hello blog!
yes, have been neglecting you.
but finally got the time to update. :D
if i were to plot a graph for my life right now,
it would be fluctuating, going up then down.

well, things won't go right everytime i guess, just gotta work harder for it.
could have done better, really, a lot better, but ahh wells, its over,
no point feeling sad over it, cause in the end, it'll still be the same.
might as well be glad that there is still a chance for me to work harder.
and feelings and thoughts have been up and down too.
for some funny reason, i think much more positive than i used to.
(which is a good thing) but it seems like i am too happy sometimes for my own good.
but to me everyday will be a better day than the previous day,
that i have always believed in.

and many sorry-s for being so darn blur everytime i do stuff that i am not familar with.
i know i can be a super blur sotong at times.
i bet someone is gonna say
"you aren't a blur sotong AT TIMES, its ALL THE TIME "
okay,to a certain extent, its true.

but many thanks to all those that have been beside me all the time,
encouraging me, pushing me forward, during this feel kinda of hectic weeks.
it hasn't been easy, but you guys really helped a lot <3
especially yuemin ahh, the late night phone calls trying to test other, was funny and useful at the same time.
especially how we digress for nutrients to something else, XD XD
but ahh wells, they were fun(:
and i think it so ironic we always get almost the same marks for sciences XD
but cheer up also! really, if this time round it isnt that good, well lets work harder for the second one (:
and don't be pissed, and get more sleep!
sometimes its really 习惯就好!
i know everyone was pissed, but ahh wells, maybe she really did have something on!

i think today at com lab was simply nerve racking.
trying to race against the computer and printer that does not respond
nearly drove me crazy.
grateful and thankful that although we were late, she didnt scold us.
ahh yuemin we are very lucky :D
but lesson learnt:
"print everything at home, if not come to school you will get a heart attack"
almost did today,
but ahh wells, what done cannot be undone.

and a super random shoutout to everyone that pokes me:
I AM GETTING IMMUNE! MUAHAHHA.
okay so don't poke me anymore XD
but i know you guys will still poke me.. oh wells XD
(nudge eunice,audrey,shihui....)

okay i am sorry that this post is rather incoherent,
and there are bits and pieces,
but thanks to anyone who even reads until here,
you have been very patient(:
hmm, shall end here, till the next time ( hopefully soon)
-gosh suddenly realises i have to find 5 performances, yuemin~~-

cheersandloves,
-xinhui): (:-

It's not what people do to us that hurts. In the most fundamental sense,
it's our chosen response to what they do to us that hurts.

2010-05-09T08:05:00.001-07:00

this is being happy <3

hurt my friends, you get it worse.

2010-05-07T07:45:00.000-07:00

why can't people be more sensitive to others.
dont they get it that others have something called feelings too.
i don't get how you can actually say stuff so mean, without thinking.
but guess what, you hurt my friends, you get it worse.
i'm sorry but that's how it works.
wake up okay.don't hurt people like it doesn't matter.
i think you are reallly looking at a very wrong perspective.
really, just open your eyes bigger, and you'll probably see people suffering just because of your unthoughtful
comments. really. i don't care about you that much,
but you hurt the people around me, sorry, but there is a limit to what i can take.
really. don't act like you know others that well,
when you have only seen them once or twice.

i wonder what wrong with some people nowadays.
and to all those that have been affected,
cheer up. they are just not worth it.
not.worth.it.
ignorance is golden.
they just don't get it.

cheersandloves,
gosh, xinhui

5 Positive Thoughts:
1. Enjoy being alive. There's plenty of time to be dead.
2. Sometimes, nobody really cares if you are miserable, so you might as well be happy.
3. If you can't solve it, it's not a problem, it's reality.
4. Happiness is like perfume; you can't pour on others without getting few drops on yourself.
5. If all good things must come to an end, then don't worry. All bad things will eventually end too.

hurt my friends, don't expect me to stay quiet.

tired of just signals.

2010-04-29T05:07:00.000-07:00

gosh.
i really shouldnt be updating the blog right now,
but i don't know, i just had the urge to.
haven't been sticking to the schedule i had for revision (as usual)
it's just. ah wells.
i guess its just bio is making my head go crazy.

it just feels bad to get hated i guess?
i don't know, but that's what i am feeling right now.
really sometimes i would rather everyone tell me how they feel.
and really, i don't really catch signals.
i'm sorry, but yes, am very slow at it.
-needs someone to rant to badly-
its as if. we don't care anymore.
its as if, one day you woke up, and everything but you changes.
that feeling, just isnt so nice.
"Pooh?" asked Piglet,
"You have a lot of friends, don't you?"
"Yes," said Pooh"But only one Piglet."
i just don't want to be disappointed.
again.

cheersandloves,
xinhui.

when the going gets tough, the tough gets going.

it must be.

2010-04-24T22:24:00.000-07:00

i want week 7 to be over like asap.
list of things to do on week 7:

1. chemistry blocks
2.Math blocks
3.Biology blocks
4.Physics blocks
5.Biology SPA.

things just cant get any better than this. .____.
but i guess it will be okay. it had better be okay.

ahh, i think its me only.
trying very hard to breathe, if you just give me the space.

cheersnadloves,
xinhui...

the thing that hurts the most,
is pretending it doesn't

New friends may be poems but old friends are alphabets.
Do not forget alphabets, because you will need them to read the poems.
~Shakespeare.
-for once, i agree with shakespeare :D-

counting down, 5 more to go.

2010-04-20T04:18:00.000-07:00

hello blog!
have not been updating, ahh wells, because of blocks and stuff.
supposedly supposed to be studying right now, but ahh wells, am blogging since
its so long since i updated:S
hmm, IH was well, rather expected, it wasnt that bad after all.
totally didnt regret going for SHE CONCERT WITH AMELIA:D
so nice,i think after this concert, i wanna go for more concerts.
the feeling of being part of the screaming fans and no screaming fans are so nice.
it was so amusing also, this guy in front of us, was doing weird stuff,
and was totally blocking amelia's view!
it was damm epic when he kept saying "WE WANT MORE" at the end of the concert.
so in conclusion, concerts are fun and nice.:D
and SHE was SO AWESOME. like awesome awesome :D
okay enough of concerts. XD

and so today batchies we went to go recee:D
it was like damm funny.
cause i went with nyssa, and nyssa was well, her usual self.
talked quite a bit with nyssa while at the same time trying to brisk walk.
realised that nyssa can be someone who talks quite well too :D
yes and at first an lady came and asked us where is harbourfront in chinese,
and then it was totally fail,
cause the two of us didnt know harbourfront in chi,
and in the end we had to go ask the station control ppl.
ah wells, at least we managed to help her in the end :D
oh and i rmb our talk on moodswings.
"when you have moodswings, what happens to all the people around you?"
that part was well, rather.. enlightening/nice/meaningful?:D
and then the most epic part of the whole journey was when we all got lost,
and we were all just like turning in circles XD
and for the first time i saw like 3 conseceutive starbucks/coffeebeean,
in a shortspan of 15 mins.
didnt know there were so many starbucks/coffeebean in that area.,
was so darn tempting, but ahh wells
starbucks, i promise i will get you someday.
i promise. and for now just be a good little girl and go do math XD

cheersandloves,
xinhui(:

A 5 year old boy asked his friend what is friendship?
He replied, "friendship is when you steal my chocolates
everyday from my bag, and yet I still keep them in the same place.

just keep focus.focus.

2010-04-14T04:44:00.000-07:00

When life gets you down do you wanna know what you've gotta do?
Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming.
~Dory from Finding Nemo.

拼! JUST KEEP GOING.

jiayousandjiayous,
xinhui..

2010-04-13T05:49:00.001-07:00

oh no. screwed.

rewind.

2010-04-04T09:02:00.000-07:00

hello blog.
sometimes i wish i could press the rewind button,
and everything would go back to the way it was at first.
but you cant, can you. and thats why its a wish.

today has been a nicenice day,
but then i feel like i've been procrastinating since forever,
which is a very very bad sign.
but am glad i started on ten year series and math and ih.
at least i did something!
yes,today is a nice day, cause there was nicenicenicenice food
and also maybe because i didnt do any homework >< .
nice food make my day!
the chilli crab that mummy bought for me was like nicenicenicne!
and everyone gave up their portion of crab for me and my cousin!
they are so nice, and so my cousin and i ate like greedy pigs,
but it was so so so nice.
okay i think theres an overload of use of the word nice, XD
okay i realise that all this is mainly nonsense, but yes. it was nice.
i think the only really sad thing is that i found our HELLO BABY IS GOING TO END.
last episode on 6th april.
which is like in 2 days):
i want to pretend that this isnt happening..
its like no more sshinee and yooguen = very very very bad
i will miss yooguen a lotalot!):
ahh but, considering the fact that SHINee is releasing their album soon!
yes, it kinda of makes up for the fact that hello baby is ending!
YESYES,SHINEE COMEBACK. SOON. (:
okay i realised that i just ranted on about how bad it is that hello baby is ending,
any normal person will think that i am mad..
hmm, shall end here and get my sleep.(:

nightsandbyes,
xinhui....

The most difficult phase of your life
is not when no one understands you;
it's when you don't understand yourself.

hmm..

2010-04-02T09:17:00.000-07:00

hello blog!
well, life has been.. rather.. hectic
and hectic kinda of means a lot, which i shant elaborate, but i think amelia knowsXD
and i could have been caneoing my day away, but ahh wells,
its a really long sstory about how my dad feels canoeing is not safe at all..
i dont really have much to say,
school has been well, a little scary and hectic so to speak,
but i still believe that tomorrow will be a better day,
considering that tomorrow is a SATURDAY(:
did i ever mention that i love fridays and weekends?
ahh wells, now you do:D
andnadnadnadn CAN'T WAIT FOR SHINEE'S COMEBACK
THEY ARE LIKE SO SO SO SO NICE
AND I CANT WAIT FOR HELLO BABY TO RESUME..
yooguen + shinee = AWESOME!
:D:D:D:D:DD:D:D
-currently in the state of being very obessed over shinee- (:
and i feel like jumping around happily again!
yay(:
okay, i should stop.. hmm till the next time i have time to post more meaningful stuff!

cheersandloves,
xinhui(: shineeee(:

i am not bound to win, but i am bound to be true.
i am not bound to succeed, but i am bound to live up to what light i have.
-abraham lincoln

wee its friday(: jumps around happily once again..

2010-03-26T06:06:00.000-07:00

hello blog!
i love fridays(: yes i really do!
today has been a relatively nice day actually(: (: (:
i dont know why, but i feel really really really really really happy for some reason :D
such a nice feeling!
today math was nice
physics was nice
chi was nice
LA was nice!
:D :D :D :D :D :D
and was discussing with amelia how math would be easy if there werent alphabets in them!
but ahh wells,math is kinda of nice, cause its a the more you do, the more you get it kinda of subject .(:
and staying back to help out was pretty nice, i dont know why but arranging tables was fun,
and clicking on the clickers ( if thats how you spell it) was rather fun too!
yes, and realised that nyssa is a super funny plus super clumsy person!
so funny! she kept tripping at the auditorium's steps,
and when i mean KEEP TRIPPING,
meant she tripped every step she moved! O:
everything seems nice and fun today!

oh yes, dinner at pizza hut with jiachee was AWESOME!
-sorry, amelia if you're reading this! but we got the album for you :D -
yes was rather skeptical about eating at pizza hut at first,
had many bad experiences at pizza hut!
but hmm it was fun and super funny and hmm nice! :>
we ordered lotsa of nice food,
and i am glad i insisted on ordeering ICECREAM~~
yes, the food was great! and we kinda of talked a lot too!
and i have founded a theory called JIACHEE'S THEORY.

jiachee theory states that if her phone vibrates, and she starts smiling to herself to the phone,
she must be smsing __________.
jiachee agrees with this theory too! :D :D :D :D
go fill in the blank yourself(: but its pretty much obvious.

okay back to the food, baked rice was like delicious!
and the MAIN POINT is that i insisted on ordering icecream,
and i am glad i insisted!
THE ICE CREAM WAS LIKE HEAVENN~
and it was so funny that jiachee was like trying to make the chocolate in the icecream ooze out!
you super epic can!
cause jiachee was like " why the chocolate never ooze out one, cheat my money!"
and with the hot brownie shaped like cupcake thing, and the cold vanilla icecream, and with
hot chocolate oozing out of the hot brownie, its like wow`
okay i should stop going crazy over it,
BUT ITS SO NICE!
this has been like the nicest thing i've eatent this whole week.
even though half of my savings is gone.. ahh wells.
its all for a good cause -my stomach.
and jiachee was telling me how jiayu and her were not " getting along" LOL.
and jiayu actually told jiachee "i wish you would die earlier" or something like that O:
i find it super funny thatt the two (jias) are fighting with each other. LOL
- the above content are all in the joking sense okay, dont be too serious about it!-
and jiachee was also telling me how lame yeekhoon was.
yes, yeekhoon you are super lame.
if anyone is lamer than me, you are considered under extreme cases of lame-ness.
yes and when she told me yeekhoon's joke, i laughed until i couldnt stop!
hmm, i think i should stop ranting!
hnmm, till the next time i haave time (:

cheersandloves,
todayisahappyday! xinhui!

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust,
and it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it.
I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to others,
they are more screwed up than you think.
I've learned that the people you care most about in life
will be taken from you too soon and
all the less important ones just never go away.

silence isnt golden anymore

2010-03-24T08:49:00.000-07:00

the silence is killing me

in more ways than you could think of.

i dont know what to say, or how to act, or how to respond.

really, i dont.

and dont expect me to say the right thing at the right time,

because i'm not perfect.

i really really really dont know what's going on.

but this whole atomsphere is almost suffocating,

at the very least, leave me some place to breathe.

cheersandloves,

dontaskmewhatisgoingoncauseidontknow,xinhui

Look between the lines, read between the words,
because the most important things are left unsaid and unheard.

one crazy week);

2010-03-20T21:57:00.000-07:00

hello blog!
this is the post i promised!
and once again its the END of the holidays. ): ): ): ):
hmm, three quarters of my holidays was spent in school, doing sias, remedials.
and many more.
and the end resutlt is: everything is still not yet complete.):
but hmm i guess i should not be complaning and stuff.
but this has been one hectic week, didnt really have time to stop and breathe.
i think that all the time spent sleeping was on buses to sch and back from sch
oh man i just realised bus trips are really nice trips to sleep! > <
-and i sound like a pig -
and i feel extremely lousy for not having started revision):
but ahh wells, one step at a time!
and i have learned to treasure every single one of my holidays,
cause once its over, you never know whne it will come back!
and currently i am very used to not going to school for lessons already,
after OBS and holidays....

yes and i want to say a very big sorry to larisa!
sorry for being late on your birthday! rmb! ?> <
yes, but you're 15 alreadyy~ LIKE ME (:
this is a bit late arh,
but stay happy, be happy, laugh more, and jiayous for everything!
hmm, and i hope you become whiter too(:
in the next ten years when i see you, i hope you will become whiter!
on a sidenote, lets become whiter together! :D
-this goal sounds a little hard (:-
but ahh wells :D :D :D
yes, and when we went to yuemin's hse on friday,
it was darn funny, especially kellin er.
kellin i tell you, you never FAIL to make me laugh.
especially when she was imitaiting the china accent.
hmm, lets have more gatherings like that, its kinda of fun..(:

hmm and buyinguniform-windowshoppingatCC-eating with batchies was kinda of fun!
yes, and the next time we should all go to like macs or sth and sit down and talk and talk!
its like so.. fun! JIACHEE YOU AGREE WITH ME RIGHT!
talking is good for your health!
so again, we should go out like after blocks or something, sometime soon! OKAY? :D
okay i should end this rather no content post,
hmm till the next time i have time (:

everything is still the same i guess?
hey, you guys used to be very very good friends!
so somebody gotta start talking right?
yes, somebody, please.

cheersandloves,
somebodygottastarttalking,xinhui): (my holidayy...)

'Cause that's what life is about.
It's about the times where you lay in the grass next to someone you love.
It's about the colour of the sky, it's about a roaring fire on a winter eve.
Everybody hurts, everybody bleeds.
Everyone laughs and smiles and loves.
And that's all that it is.
There is no meaning of life, it's nothing that can be defined.
It's a matter of writing your own definition.

it's gonna end. somehow.somewway.

2010-03-15T08:55:00.000-07:00

Too often we don't realise what we have until its gone.
Too often we're too stubborn to say 'sorry, I was wrong.'
Too often it seems we hurt the ones closest to our hearts,
and we let the most foolish things tear us apart.

cheersandloves,

hopefully?xinhui

I AM BACKK (:

2010-03-12T21:10:00.000-08:00

HELLO BLOG!
xinhui is once again another happpy girl!
she is proud to say she survived OBS! veryveryproud.
yes, and i have ALOTALOT of people i want to thank right now.
i dont know why but i kinda kinda of miss OBS for a funny reason!
the whole journey have not been easy, but it was great doing everything as a watch
the whole trekking and kayaking process has been WOW, and really tiring,
but to know that each other was there was really great(:
really really LOVE YOU GUYS A LOT
and i love it when we all go super high!
THREE-TEN 3RING 1T 0N. <333
there were times when we couldnt make it,
there were times when we were all complaining,
but thinking about all those times,
it was what made this OBS process even more meaningful
because how tough it was was what made it great!
and i would cal this a SUCCESS, because we all never did give up<3
-yes, but to be honest i still dont like the currents on the sea >.< -

yes, but firstly i wanna say shee mun has been a BRILLANT instructor.
i totally love all her lovely stories and inspirations that always keep us together!
especially all her WELL DONE! it might just be a simple well done!
but i believe it helped us a lot to just get a little affirmation!
yesyes, and the next group of people that i want to thank is BATTUTA<3
you guys rock! EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU.
yes, and i will be honest and say that i dont really know you guys well,
but obs helped a lot~
thank you amelia for kayaking with me and bearing my impatience on the sea,
thank you for not giving up on me (:
thank you rachel for always making me laugh, i love those random times when we meet
and just smile like retards at each other.(:
thank you daphne for being the navigator and all the other stuff, and being high with me :D
you are one lovely little girl!- this sounds wrong, but ah wells :D-
thank you siqi for being so understanding towards me, you are always helping out,
especially with all the stones! you are really really a great person to be with!
thank you xinzhuo for being like a mother, you are always there like helping out
when we need it, you are really reallly nice, and amusing! :D
thank you jermaine for always keeping us high and for keeping the morale very very
high, and all the funny cheers! and you are really a nice person to be with (:
thank you shichen for cooking for us on the last day, and keeping the morale very
high too, you are really funny(:
thank you cecilia for helping out the watch a lot! you have been helping us whether or not
it was your group, you are like a mother! THANKS!
thank you audrey for always helping out with like can opening which all of us are
really useless at! you are always volunteering your help, a very big thankyou!
thank you mun shuen for being really really funny, and being a rather cheerful person all the while!
i love how amusing you are! you are really super nice (:
thank you xinyi(lim) for always helping with the cooking! i realise that you have always
been cooking, and your cooking skills are good! :D
thank you xinyi(goh) for helping out quietly, and being a really really nice person to be with,
and always helping when needed, and thank you for being the very good pacer!
thank you Hannah for being really amusing at times! really! and you are a nice and good team player!
thank you yuyen for perservering till the end! OBS havent been easy but you have always been there
no matter what! THANK YOU!
thank you kayla for being with us on the first day, you might have left after the first day,
but i believe that you have been trying your very best!
YES AND THANK YOU TO ALL THE FRIENDS I MADE AT SEA!
your are really funny, and thanks for encouraging me on!
and to the rest of the THREETEN, we really missed you guys,
and you really rock (:

okay, i wanna go and sleep again ><
ahh am sleeping again, feels like a super lazy pig but ahh wells
till the next time when i have time :D

there's something about OBS that stays with you for life!

cheersandloves,
XINHUI! obs(:

i wish you enough.

AHH I HAVENT PACK ): ohman

2010-03-04T05:24:00.000-08:00

hello blog!
i havent pack for OBS yet, or rather i dont have all the stuff i need><
brillant.
ahh but tmr is already the last day of TERM 1
ohman, TIME IS LIKE WOOSH. it doesnt wait for no one. not for me at least.
its like so fast so fast, in like 3 days its like OBSOBSOBS.
someone tell me that i wont become chaoda when i come back , i need reassurance.
ahh shall be OPTIMISTIC.
at least theres still hope ( i hope)
yesyes, i believe that it will be fun yesyes ;D
hmm, aiyah shant think so much, it'll only make me more scared.

yes, and i cant wait for break.
yes, i know everything's piling up, but everything will be done..hopefully.
ahh talking about SIAS and homework only makes me stressed.
sec 3 life is stressful, but ahh wells, cheng xia qu bahhs....
it'll work out, somehow someway.

misunderstandings really stress me out.
this time i realise that misunderstandings occur only when the other party doesnt trust you.
and when they dont, it hurts a lot.
trust can be strong, but it can be just as weak.
sometimes i rather know the truth even if it hurts than feel insecure.

cheersandloves,

someonetellmewhattodo,xinhui

.if's like once you've been hurt, you're so scared to get attached again. like you have this fear that every person you start to like is going to break your heart.

It's the guilt, you know? It's like every time I look at her... I just... The guilt is like a punch in the gut. Everyday.

ahh):

2010-03-02T03:29:00.000-08:00

i miss those days.
i really wonder if its me or what. .________.

cheersandloves,
ahhh): xinhui

I need something to make me believe.

we should be glad that sometimes we still have friends to qurrael with.

contented.

2010-02-28T07:18:00.000-08:00

hello blog!

i guess i finally found time to change my blogskin :D
and its pretty and simple, just right for me.
and yay to the my other twin(: hahas :D
-just realised i have this fetish for twin stuff, i have triplets pencil box, twin many other stuff:D:
:D :D :D

ahh yes, about this certain someone.,
i really think that you should think before you say, i guess.
and i really think that not all adults are right.
even my mum agreed that she really has gone a little off, and is really really rude.
but for me, i kind of pity her,
having resentment 24/7 in your heart, will only make you suffer, not anyone else
but yes, i think the words you use are far too harsh.
even if it menat whatever you were thinking.
but yes, i still have my respect for you as an elder,
but do you have any for someone whose your elder?
sometimes, i really really wonder.
-ah enough of this weird stuff, cousins i think this is rather understandable-

and i realise, that i am one who needs someone to talk to 24/7.
(except for maybe lessons)
yes, and sometimes it just makes me feel so awkward,
when theres someone, but then they are just not talking..
its just so.. weird i guess
but i guess there are periods when you just am so tired of talking >.<
yeah, and it doesnt take too much for me to be weird-ed out.
-enough of this being weirded out stuff already, its so weird-

oh yes, and sometimes i really wonder if people are really listening when i am saying something.
i cant be actually saying the wrong thing twice right, at least i hope not.
ahh but once bitten, twice shy. it really makes me wonder sometimes.
i'm sorry for feeling this way, but i just cant help but think.

cheersandloves,
i'msorryforfeelingthiway xinhui

nothing that's worthwhile is ever easy. remember that.
[nicholas sparks]

it has become so awkward that sometimes i dont even know how to approach you.

happy (:

2010-02-26T08:09:00.000-08:00

HELLO BLOG!
XINHUI IS ONE HAPPY GIRL RIGHT NOW!
hmm, and i am missing footdrill the moment thinking day parade 2010 ended.
it was indeed a mixture of many emotions,
alll the hard work payed off :D
and the idea of not having footdrill every session has been rather weird >.<
and i must say KAHMIN YOU ARE PRO<3 ahh love you<3
and the first thing when we finished, i wanted to hug whoever that was near me(:
and lotsa of love for colourparty'10, we did our very best!
-all the lunch drills and last min prac and all the footdrill session paid off!-
and everyone in the company as well, i believed everyone put in 101% of effort today,
and we rocked <3

and amelia<3, lets commerate today as the day we stayed the longest with each other talking :D
26-2-2010!
lols, yeah annd we really talk from like this to that and that to that that....
and we still have so much much more to talk... >.<
and i totally LOVE our " its just human nature.."
yes, and our manymany DA DAO LI! E.g: the key to failure is trying to please everyone!
hmm, talking to you is really really fun:D
and i realised that we are really alike in many many many ways XD
and there are many things that are better left unsaid :D
hmm and you are one really nice classmate/batchmate/good friend to have a talk with<3
i swear we must have more of such talks, its so fun:D

awkward.
sometimes its just so.. awkward.
but you know, i still hold on, because i believe in you.
i just hope that my trust, will not be crushed.

cheersandloves,
IAMHAPPY! XINHUI

"It was just one of those things," I said, "you know, that just happen.
You don't think or plan. You just do it."

GOOD HAPPY KID

2010-02-23T06:21:00.000-08:00

hello blog!
i feel like a good happy kid,
cause theres not a lot of homework :D:D
yayyay! :D
ahh am feeling really elated over someone's words :D :D

today's presentation was really .____.
i dont think they were interested in what we had to say, really.
and we were feeling really .____.
to think that we actually put in quite a lot of effort.
ahh but ah wellls it over:D

and yooguen is seriously too cute to be true.
i think its the first time i really really really fangirl over someone.
looking at his really really cute pics gives me motivation to do homework<3
<33333 - learned this trick frm amelia-
yes and when you're unhappy,
look at his picture and you feel happpyyyyyy~~ :D
OH MAN, hes really too cute to be a guyy!
oh and today was the last rehersal for TDP!
ahh yes colour party jiayous on friday okay<3 jiayousjiayous!
ahh i feel nervous after realising that there isnt a lot of days left,
but we will/must do our very very very best that day! like give it our 101%!
and also jiayous to everyone for TDPP! -we can do it-:D
hmm i should go and start preparing for zuo wen or sth ><
ah yes shall end here till the next time i have more time! :D

CHEERSANDLOVES,
IUSECAPSWHENIAMHAPPYYYYYY,xinhui!

Superman's not brave.
You can't be brave if your indestructible.
It's every day people, like you and me, that are brave,
knowing we could easily be defeated,
but still continue forward.

i feel fustrated

2010-02-18T07:12:00.000-08:00

Sometimes, everything could be just seem to be so superficial,so fake.
hello blog!
i like it whenever i update you!
i feel like i have to write stuff here so as to ease the burden on myself.
a channel of de-stressing.
ahhh am doing math, and it really really sucks when you dont know how to do math..):
i feel like such a failure, really.
ahh homework has been like piling up, and theres like physics quiz tmr, and everyone says its HARD.
so i'm very much ready to die.
yes, but ahh the talk with amelia today at ah you-know-where was really good.
finally found a place to say everything that has been on my mind for very very long.
yes, and it really is like, it feels so much better after everything is said out, clear and nice.
and i am not one to like to keep to myself,
but due to certain circumstances, one must do so.
ahh amelia, you are my talking buddy:D
and i realise that we are in really similar situations, that just cannot seem to be solved.
but dont worry, i promise to be here if you ever need me, anytime(:
ahh yes, life isnt exactly the way i pictured it to be at first,
but i believe in miracles, and that tomorrow will be a better day.
even if it doesnt, at least i hoped.
whatever that's making you sad/worried/angry/pissed off, cheer up anyway(:

cheersandloves,
ahhihavemathtodo, xinhui!

"what are you waiting for?"
"i don't know, something amazing i guess."
[the incredibles]

its already over

2010-02-16T06:57:00.000-08:00

AHH I LOVE CNY all of a sudden):
its like over already, at least the CNY holidays are.. i guess
ahh just a small and sweet post before i have to sleep and go to sch tmr(:
hmm the CNY holidays have been well rather boring,
but yes, i lovee all the nice snacks/playing of poker cards/ listening to gossip/and many many other stuff
ahh yes and i realised all holidays are short, thats when we will cherish them.
if they were long long holidays, we would prolly take them for granted and stuff.
-okay the above 2 sentences really do not make sense-
ahh yes, but i still love CNY. :D
ahh and i like these year's new year clothings :D (thankyou, mummy!)
and yes, this year CNY has been rather uneventful too,
but the best part is that i can sleep until like 11, cause we go bai nian in the afternoon, :D
ahh i should stop ranting on and on,
hmm it should end .
yay till the next time i have time :D

cheersandloves,
ahhCNYitsALMOSTOVER):, xinhui(:

The important thing is not to be bitter over life's disappointments.
Learn to let go of the past, and recognize that every day won't be sunny.
And when you find yourself lost in the darkness of despair,
remember, it's only in the black of night that you see the stars,
and those stars lead you back home.

ugh cant be bothered.

2010-02-11T04:25:00.000-08:00

hmm, and i am finally alive and jumping again(:
ha! i am so happy i recovered ;D
CAUSE I WANNA EAT DURING CNY<33333
okay i am starting to sound like a pig.
but when you;re sick, all that you're thinking is that: i wanna sleep.i wanna sleep.
(i think its because of the medicine that made me feel like puking and gives me a headache)
and nothing else will go into your mind at all.really
and you will find that this condition will prove to be extremely if not really irritating
esp when you're having lessons.
having i wanna sleep in your mind will really make you want to sleep.
so its good that i am jumping and alive,(:
yeah and today was rather uneventful i say.
and the only things i rmb is playing a seaweed game and losing it immediately
and then watching dracula and finding it extremely amusing
because dracula is this old guy which is supposed to be oh so scary.
but i find him rather "cute" though. hahas.
hmm yeah and thats pretty much all(: till the next time i have time to post!
somtimes i wonder why i even held on.
and i know why.
cause its worth holding on. its true.

cheersandloves,
draculaISamusing,xinhui!

There are some people in life that make you laugh a little harder, smile a little brighter, and just live a little better.

fainted?

2010-02-07T01:46:00.001-08:00

i still cannot believe i actually fainted.

cheersandloves,
ifainted? xinhui

sucks to be sick.

2010-02-06T04:09:00.000-08:00

hey blog,
just realised that i have been updating almost everyday:D
hmm, its prolly a good thing though.
ahh yes, and i am sick.
i guess the disease got to me?
and yeah, the doc gave me 6 days MC..
which is like wow?
starting to wonder how am i gonna get all my hw and catch up and stuff D;
prolly because the doc suspects that i might have H1N1.
(which again is a terrifying thought)
hmm i think i am gonna return soon though XD
and the block nose/cough/fever is totally killing me..
-ah i feel like dying...- ):

cheerandloves,
iamsickkkkk,xinhui ):

“Be happy. It's one way of being wise.”

ABSTRACT

2010-02-05T06:21:00.000-08:00

why is everyone like saying abstract stuff that i DO NOT UNDERSTAND at all.
gah. maybe it was not meant for me to understand anyway.
realizes that i am always one of the last person to understand anything. really.
i've gotta learn to be smarter. really. i do.

and yuemin, you better come to my blog!
and when you do, we can actually have a celebration already.
considering the fact that you actually dont really bloghop.
-and hey i wanna go your house-
and let's just talk and talk for like forever- (: XD
and i miss all those late night calls, that go on forever too.
at least tiill one of our parents come XD
lets like call each other sometime soon?:D

hmm, and yeah and the sec ones came in today,
and i just realised how fast time passes.
- i feel like it was just yesterday when i was a sec one-
yes, and i feel really old.
time passes really in a FEW BLINKS.
and i feel like time is draining out all my energy.
day by day, week by week.
it's like i am getting more tired. even by the second.
what's wrong with me. -___-
and hmm the sec ones were pretty much nice, i guess.
and my buddy is so cutee:D
and i think she must think i am crazy for asking her so many times do you have a question?
gah, it must seem so weird.
if i were her, i would have thought so, but ah wells (:
this week has been a rather hectic week, and i dont really know why.
okay this post is getting weirder by the minute.
and time is passing so fast, and i dont know why either.
it's just weird, i guess.
and when everybody and everything just seems so far away sometimes,
it could make you feel so lonely, so empty.

cheersandloves,
xinhui?

“There's nothing more valuable
than having someone in your life
that reminds you of who you are.”

HELLO BLOG!

2010-02-03T05:48:00.000-08:00

hello blog!
am supposed to do chem worksheet now,
but i have been dwelling on it like since FOREVER.
and i decided that i shall depend on amelia to enlighten me on chem ( as usual) XD
:D :D
hmm and i so i shall blog!
yeah art has been so funn! especially the casting part!
and our self-initiated break XD
hmm and there's nothing much to say except that,
i feel like a good organized kid :D
(:
-suddenly realises that the blog post is rather lame, but ah wells(: -
all for the sake of boredom(:

cheerandloves,
thecurrentlydoingchemworksheet, buthappenstobeblogging, XINHUI(:

Sometimes, even the things you most want to say,
maybe them most of all, couldn't fit inside the words.

15!

2010-02-01T06:28:00.000-08:00

hello blog!
am fifteen already! hmm it kinda of feels the same when i was fourteen but ah wells!
yes,yes
and thanks to every single soul that actually wished me HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
in some way or another
you guys rock<3
and heres a special shoutout to yuemin!
thanks for scaring me and calling me santa claus today(: you really rock<3
and thanks for telling/reminding me that i am already one year older
and another shoutout to larisa!
hmm really thanks a lotsa for your present! and miss you miss you loads!<3
shall go and pop by your class and visit you someother time :D
you rock too <3
hey lets go out one fine day to do scrapebooks! x.x
and yes, thanks to everyone that gave me a present too,
you guys really gave me a shock(:
but yes, thanks(:
and thanks to batchmates who posted a happybirthday wish that is extremely large, thanks(:
at least you didnt use any other names (:
and yes thanks to mummy and daddy,
i had the best day today with your today(:
love<333333333333333
-does not know how to continue this post already D; -
BUT YES.
the conclusion is: THANKS(:

cheersandloves,
thanks!, XINHUI(:

Be strong now, because things will get better.
it might be stormy now, but it can’t rain forever.

- hmm and something that i have been wanting to say:
thank you mummy for bringing me into this world 15 years ago,
and watching me grow up for this 15 years, thanks a lot!
iloveyou, mummy <3

HELLO?

2010-01-30T07:30:00.000-08:00

hello blog(:
well stuff at school has been rather.. let's just say it was overwhelming.
stuff happens. and not all are pleasant.
to me, it's just i don't want things to turn ugly.
but sometimes, when it all turns ugly,
it's because someones at fault. thats why.
-shall stop saying all the weird and sad stuff-
but ah yes.
went to serene centre with dearest jc, to get her phone back..
and then according to her it was some RJC guy..
and yeah we went there, hoping it was not some funny jikopeh or sth like that><
and YEAH it wasnt, it was this -quiteshuai- guy from somewhere,
but no. hes not a jikopeh.
i bet jiachee was damm happy. yeah
and she was so happy that she left her stuff there. and i left my shoebag there too.
and i had to run back to serene centre after
alighting one stop away to grab my shoebag and her stuff.
and i rmb the run being very or rather horrible.
-cause while running there i saw a 67 bus pass by,
and alll i could do was continuing running to no, not the bus, but serene centre-
I.MUST.SHOULD. learn how to not leave stuff around. here and there.
and this concludes another of jiachee and my funny adventures.again.
jiachee, tell me why we have so many funny adventures?
all feeling really moody because of homework.
when i went home i was feeling happy because i thought there was NO.HOMEWORK.
i didnt bother looking into my handbook then..
then amelia told me there was a lot of HOMEWORK.
and turns out it is true.
D:
but ah yes, shall start cultivating this LOVE for homwork,
so that everytime i have to do homework i wont feel sad :D
-oh wells it sounds stupid, but i think it makes sense-
oh yes, and thanks to every single soul that helped with the clearing of classbreakfast food..
you guys saved me from bringing everything back :D

cheerandloves,
thedoesnotwanttoleavestuffnanywhere,anymore, xinhui!

i'm not perfect, but i keep trying.
'cause that's what i said i would do from the start.
[ perfect ; hedley ]

weird and lonely

2010-01-23T08:24:00.001-08:00

its those times when you feel weird and lonely,
and those times when all you need is a hug.

cheersandloves,
xinhui.

someone?
~~i'm still sorry.~~

in a few blinks

2010-01-21T03:55:00.000-08:00

hello blog once again!
i promised i would write this: i really really don't like bus 67):
yea, i realised that alotlot of people takes bus 67,
and as i told amelia i wished every bus that came was 67,
and everyone should just take 67, and everyone would go and live in choachukang,
annd it would be happily ever after:D
oh yea, but there would be overcrowding in choachukang:/
(okay ignore me, i am simply rambling on and on :/
i'll be really surpriised someone actually reads this chunk of stuff:/)

realised that school's going really really fast.
it was just a FEW BLINKS ago when it was just the first day of school!
nad then now its already the third week already!
and as daphne has said AFTER A FEW BLINKS again,
it would be like OBS and then the march holidays already
i'm like wow. i should blink more, to make time pass faster.
yeah and i am getting used to the fact that i am in 310, not 206,
in the year 2010 and not in the year 2009.
am a sec three now and no longer a sec two.
i feel accomplished >,<
hmm and i feel lessons are pretty much enjoyable on a whole, i guess(:
but the SIAs are overwhelming, but ah wells.
what needs to be done shall be done, and will be done.
i guess i should just stop worrying and feeling stressed cause its not gonna do me any good
and thnaks to msphuayuemin,
cause i always rant to you about being stressed:/
and you'll always listen, and have that reassuring smile on your face.
ah yes, sorry for abandoning you sometimes! sorry!
and have been talking to amelia almost everyday! :D:D
lols, those late night convos are really amusing,
especially the 'hey shouldnt we go to sleep like now?'
and the 'hey how to do math?'
:D
hmm, shall end here and get back to reading my newspaper! ><

cheersandloves,
thereallythankful,xinhui:D

I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong.
I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day,
and I believe in miracles.

~~i'm sorry.~~

time to move on (:

2010-01-13T04:09:00.000-08:00

hello blog once again (:
after neglecting you for pretty long! D:
hmm after that period, i guess its time to move on.
forgive and forget, i guess...
misses sec 2 life badly):
cause it was the year whereby you knew everyone already,
and yeah you kinda of know whats in store for you.
but yeah sec 3 is a huge jump from sec 2 i guess.
yeah and i miss talking with fangmin on the bus back home ):
misses talking to larisa in the morning!
(and larisa if you're reading this, starbucks soon? :D)
and misses teasing avril every morning ):
ahh and yea i kinda of miss 206):
i ALWAYS write: 206 , and 2009 on the paper ><
but i guess i should feel blessed enough that yuemin is in my class!
yuemin, you are a nice tablemate :D
though we are sitting at the front, but ah wells :D
(and cheerup, dont be pissed already!)
:D :D :D
still trying really badly to get used to the ppl in my class,
but dont worry, i shall and will do so asap!
and and being treasurer is stressful. ><
especially when you have to carry money around ><
and yea its just that the thought "die, later the money lost how?"
would always be lingering at the back of your head ><
but shall shall shall get used to it really really soon! (:
sias and hw are all coming at one shot.
and are roughly supposed to be handed up all around the same time too.><
just when you were thinking the SIAs and hw are a lot already,
somewhere, somehow, another SIA or hw comes your way..

i hope i survive.

cheersandloves,
thenotusedtosecthreelife,xinhui><

Goodbyes make you think, they make you realize what you have, what you've lost, and what you've taken for granted.

argh

2010-01-09T21:55:00.001-08:00

HELLO BLOG D<
quoted frm amelia's bog:

I'm sorry you think we're insane.
I'm sorry that you look down upon what we all love.
I'm sorry you think we're slack and not slack at the same time.
I'm sorry you think we're all mental and should all go to IMH.
I'm sorry that you're insults are entertainment for your friends.
I'm sorry that we make you so angry, you insult us freely on your blog.
I'm sorry that we're a part of our life and you can't get rid of us.

yes, and seriously get a life.
from what i see, ******** about us make up most of your life.
and if you did not want us to know, you shouldnt have blogged in the first place.
cause someone's gonna find out in the end.
yeah, if you wanted to insult us, well you did a pretty good job at it.
i am just plain disappointed.
now i know what backstabbing feels like.
now i know how harsh some people can be.
now i know how harsh reality can be, and how brittle hopes can be sometimes.

cheersandloves,
ireallydontknowhattosayorfeelnow,xinhui

i need someone to rant to. - badly.

-i have seen what a laugh can do, it can transform even the most
unbearable situations, into something bearable, even hopeful (:

to the special someone who's really not in a good mood D;

2010-01-08T23:01:00.000-08:00

hello blog D:
yeah and this post shall be dedicated to the special someone who's really sad D:
we're really sorry that we were really rather insensitive to your feelings D;
we're really sorry that we really really said the wrong stuff. D:
yea, and if you're reading this,
we're just really really sorry.
but cheer up(: and if you really need someone to talk to, come talk to me(:
always be there(:

cheersnadloves,
theverysorry, xinhui):

"life is too ironic to fully understand.
It takes sadness to know what happiness is.
Noise to appreciate silence.
And absence to value presence."

hello blog again! posting cause was asked to :D

2010-01-02T07:50:00.000-08:00

hello blog!
i am posting because i was asked to post by dearest amelia and jiachee:D
they said that everyone has posted in the new year!
and so i will post in dear 2010!
at the moment 2009 went into 2010 i was in malaysia watching TONS of fireworks!
so nice :D fireworks just kept blasting off, you can imagine:D
and so resolution for the new year :
1. survive sec three happily :D
2. grow taller:D
3. start with my 'help a person a day' plan;D
4.love batch08flyingchickens more<3 :D
hmm and so malaysia was shopping, shopping and MORE SHOPPING :D
bought clothes , bags and watched movie(sherlok holmes) with cousins and bro!
which my bro did not understand, prolly because it was PG13, and they are only like 8,7?
and my bro was still thinking he was watching avatar..
he asked me at least FIVE TIMES in the movie theatre, " is this avatar? "
wanted to take neoprints with cousins, but it was like EXPENSIVE D:
am glad that i am back in singapore mainly because of the toilets ;D
was pretty much fun, although i realised that time passes really really fast when shopping D:
hmm and this is pretty much all :D XD
and this is my first post in the year 2010, 2-1-2010!:D
hmm gonna look forward to getting batchwatch :D yay:D

cheersandloves,
myfirstpostion2010,XINHUI(:
30days(:

Don't always say, "There's still time." because there's also a concept of, "It's too late."

BATCH OUTING<3 WE ROCKK

2009-12-29T04:25:00.000-08:00

hello blog,
i think i am sick.
great! ><
I AM HAVING SORETHROAT, in which case EVERYTHING that goes down my throat, hurts.
and to talk hurts too. darn. gah,
then i think the raw satay that i ate took effect><
have been going to the toilet now and then.
gah.
and tmr i'm gonna go malaysia! DONTWANNA FALL SICK NOWW><
shall like gulp down bottles of water and hope everything goes away by tmr :D

hmm and so i was asked to post for BATCH OUTING 2009~ :D
can pretty much say it was pretty much successful!
we had 11 ppl, there could have been more, but to those that are sick! :
GET WELL SOON! :D
and and so, we got to nyssa's hse and started barbecueing :D
trying to start a fire was surprisingly easy, though we met with trouble here and there,
but ah wells, we managed to do it in the end :D
and nyssa and qianyu was like working full time at the BBQ pit!
so nice~~
i actually only helped with starting thee fire, and reviving the fire..
and i am pissed that the ashes flew out and burnt a HOLE IN MY NEW SHOEE~~
ahhh.. i now have a permenant souvenir of batch outing 2009.
a burnt hole in my shoe..
and while we were happy bbq-ing,
the rest were talking about random stuff, and we kept digressing to other stuff.
we realised that we were pretty good aat digressing.
yes. oh wait make it really REALLY GOOD.
hmm and to those batchmates that were there,you know what we were discussing about ><
best kept confidential:D
then after that i realised that i ate a raw satay that nyssa insisted was cooked, so i ate it anyway.
and it was raw i conclude.
cause my stomach is hurting,
and i have been visiting the toilet frequently.
and then after the bbq-ing, we were supposed to go KTV, but the ktv thing spoiled ><
and so we went up to continue talking and eat marshmallows,
that were supposed to be bbq-ed but we didnt have the stick thingy..
and then we started to try at least to come up with a batchname..
and after discussing and digressing for veryveryveryveryveryvery long,
we still couldnt come up with a decent one.
and the best we got to was : FLYING CHICKENSS.
and the rational i gave it was beccause: chickens cant fly, but we can.
and i still dont get it, but ah wells .><
and amelia wanted FLYING PIGS( airpork you realised), FLYING PENGUINS.
i dont know, but that day we had an obession with FLYING:D reminds me of takeflight;D
and then we wanted to go wadle in the pool,
and so we went,
and there were PASSSING CLOUDS. ( i swear it was PASSSING CLOUDS)
and it started pouring, and we left,
and by the time we reached nyssa's hse, it STOPPED D:
gah, i knew it was passing clouds! D:
and then we sat down to watch music bank, and yu le and everyone was watching,
and so me, yeekhoon, and xinyi, was rather bored,
cause we didnt want to watch SS501 perform, (no offence intended><)
and then so we formed a patrol. called littlemisslollipopcow ><
so weird. but ah wellls, we started to talk and tried to come up with cheers and batch name,
and in the end it came back to FLYING CHICKENS! losl.
i rmbered one was BIRD NEST, niao chao or sth like that,
and that day i learned two new phrases frm xinyi:
LC- means low class ( though i thought it was lame crap)
HC- means high class (e.g the xinyi ( accoding to xinyi, her name is high class)
okay, i realised this is really lame.
and so were digressing, and thought of batch identity~~
and then we came up with watches! ;D
WHICH IS A GOOD IDEA. thumbs up;D
and then it caused a frenzy, i dont know what happened next,
but next moment we were on our way out to northpoint, to look for watches><
and then we couldnt find any, and so we left,
but we ( me, jiachee, amelia) were later cause we got sth frm macs,
and thenn we saw the night market place,
and we went to see whether they sold!
and then they did! :D
and so we bought 3 yellow ones for ourselves first..
cause there was not enough.
and so as we were preparing to leave,
we were like how abt we standardise the type of watches, but diff colours?
then were like okay!
then it was another frenzy, cause we started to call batchmates like crazy..
first was hp no.
then was house no.
then we prolly got everyone's fav colour, and then we went like mad dogs to the uncle to buy watches.
and we bought 21 frm him><
it was like wow..
then we decided that every watch would have a sticker on it saying : BATCH 08
and i made the personalised sticker already :D yay:D
hmm we now have a batch name and a batch watch!(L)
okay and that was the end of that day:D
it was happy day though ;D
yay;D
successful batch outing! 28-12-2009. my burnt hole in my shoe ~!

cheerandloves,
ibought21watchesyesterday,andhadAPPLE08outinrtoday XINHUI (:

ilybatch08♥
It’s going to take faith. It’s going to take trust.
It’s going to take everything we’ve got even when we know it won’t be enough.
It’s going to take hope. We even need a little bit of luck.
And if anybody tells us we’re going to make it on our own,
it isn’t true. Oh because baby, it takes 21 :D

faith

2009-12-27T07:40:00.000-08:00

People save lifes everyday, in many different ways
you see you dont need to be a surgeon or a fireman,
you dont have to be smart or stronger than everyone else.
Remember the times when all you needed was a hug?
well i'm not telling you to go and hug everyone you see
but a smile, or make someone laugh
that might just save their life.
i don't know, but i guess its really the little things that matters, from the start <3
and to that special someone who made me realised this, and gave me back my faith. (:
you rock <3

cheersandloves,
i'vegotmyfaithbacknow, xinhui

if you want forever
then we have to endeavor
every moment you want to let go
if it’s forever and always
we’ll endeavor all the pain
just for one sunny day
- Forever endeavor by Ryan Bandong.

slackkingg

2009-12-22T06:23:00.000-08:00

slacking is the perfect word to describe every single thing i have been doing. ><
ahh, i think i have a lot of things to do,
and considering i am going away overseas soon.
i better get everything settled.
but then. >< its like >< whaa...
everyday i wake up and like practically stone.
stoning is becoming like something of a hobby.><
and today i tried looking for my LA paper and failed.><
at the end i think i am just going to do up another draft of LA. ><
and tried starting on circle properties but failed badly><
hmm i shall try to complete everything by today ><
gonna finally get out of the hse tmr finally ><
gonna go out with mum( i think) (yay) :D
and cant wait for the trip to malaysia(:
cause am gonna spend my last 2009 moment there!
hmm can kua nian with cousins! yay! (L) wished everyone was there, but oh wells!
hmm was origianlly supposed to be korea, but ah wells it didnt work out!
I WANT TO GO SOMEWHERE WHERES THERES SNOWW!
i wrote that on a piece of paper which i pasted on my door,
and then someone wrote: " go snow city"
i bet it was my brothererrrrr!><
ahh gotta start being moremoremoremoremorem PRODUCTIVEEEEEEE !
neoxinhui you better stop stoning/playing/slacking.><
cause you're gonna not get anything done>
okay thats pretty much all.
gotta enjoy every last minute of this holiday while i can, and not stone it away!

cheersandloves,
theveryun-productive, xinhui):

misses everyone a lot <3 only reason why i want to go back to school!

The reason why a seesaw was made for two persons is that when you go down, there would always be someone there to lift you up again.

inspiring(:

2009-12-21T07:37:00.000-08:00

this shall be a rather random, but inspiring ( i think) post:D
and all gotten while i was flipping through xanga<3

i see jacob(taylor launter) when i was browsing through xanga pages,
and i was like wow, he's totally WOW(:
and i was thinking, ahh the movie is so unfair..
they got such a nice actor to be jacob,
and edward is like D:, but one thing i've gotta admit, edward acts really well;D
and in the book, i am totally team edward! go:D

well and i continued browsing through xanga pages,
and i saw this:

it so nice right! <3 ahh the wonders of xanga(:
i want to flyy too, the ballons look awesomely nice <3
and the girl looks like some supernatural girl that can stand on a chair and fly.
makes me want to flyy too;D

hmm before i end this really random but inspiring post,
i shall put up another picture i saw:

:D and thats all. i really love xanga<3 :D

cheersandloves,
thegirlwhoreallylikesxangawhenshesbored, XINHUI(:

don't confuse the people who are always around
with the ones who are always there

101 reasons why i do not like botanic gardens

2009-12-18T21:58:00.000-08:00

hello blog!:D
botanic gardens is really a memorable place -____-
and jiachee, i understand why do you so not- like the botanic gardens..
i came up with 101 reasons to not like botanic gardens,
but i shall do with the 101th reason :
because it made me walk my whole morning away, and i still could not find what i wwanted to find.
botanic gardens is SOOOOOO B-I-G.
and i was walking and walking and walking and walking.......
shall leave the details out, cause the more i blog about it, the more depressed i get.
and the conclusion is:
botanic garden is a big and scary place. seriously . -___-
okay this shall be it, gonna go have a ride on the singapore flyerrr ;D
till the next time.. ( this is sounding more and more like some cartoon..)

cheersandloves,
thepersonwhoisabsoultelyafraidofBG, XINHUI):

It's hard to wait around for something you know won't ever happen. But it's a million times harder to stop when that this is everything you want.

hello world of blogging

2009-12-17T04:12:00.000-08:00

hello world!
am back frm campchallenge oasis patrol outing 09:D <3
okay and so today though we only have 5 ppl out of 8 attending, well it was still fun:D
today was sushi plus movie day!
and i call it the lucky but really dumb day!
firstly, i waited for ms choongjiachee who very kindly made me wait for 30 mins ;D
actually she had a reason, she was looking for something impt.
to all readers of my blog, if you want to know what she was looking,
you can ask her ;D
and so we were later, but in our minds we were like : hmm maybe we could actually get there on time..
then at 11:44, 14 mins after the time we were supposed to gather,
we got a phone call frm melissa, saying " you are late!"
oops,and so we started to run..
and when we finally reached,
we realised that aurelia had not reached -____-
then we realised that aurelia reached like longtime ago..
but somehow she was not there..
then melissa made another "you are late!" phone call!
and i dont know why, but the moment melissa calls you, and say " you are late!"
you feel like laughing and to hurry up!
melissa you have a secret talent! ;D
and so we were dwelling in front of the cinema contemplating what to watch
we had three choices :
1. new moon
2. avatar
3. planet 51
in the end we chose new moon,
cause:
1. avatar was THREE whole hours.. ( and we wanted to eat sushi<3)
2. planet 51 was well kinda of cute but you know.. yah ( you know what ;D )
and so we chose new moon,
and we had like 1/2 and hour more and so we went SPOTLIGHT!
and i realised it was just like IKEA!
and its like so cool <3
its like sewing paradise !
and we tried putting on hats, and goofing around!
yay IKEA AND SPOTLIGHT ROCKSS
melisaa wanted to get buttons, yes BUTTONS for her friend..
but in the end there was no time, so we rushed out of spotlight( like how we did during amazing race)
and raced to the cinema place..
cause we wanted popcorn, nachos, chips and icecream!
and so we got everything but chips!
and guess what,
three guys came up to us telling us that they bought like A LOT ot extra popcorn and drinks,
and gave us 2 POPCORN AND DRINKS FOR FREEEEEEE
then we were like about to pay them, and they said dont need..
then we were like shocked,
but ah wells, we got it! then we went like YAY ;D
cause we saved like 11 dollars
then melissa was like we got that for free! oh yay;D
then after that we went to watch new moon..
hmm new moon was yeps rather funny. but the book really rocks
as in funny as in the way edward comes out EVERY SINGLE TIME
makes me want to laugh non-stop..
and mel was just laughing in the theatre, the whole time..
she and aurelia were team jacob,
and meishan, me and jiachee were team edward!
yeps, but i still think edward is more shuai in the BOOK!
<3 go edward!
but i'll still gotta admit, jacob looks kinda of shuai in the movie!
OH MAN AND I FORGOT ABOUT THE FUNNY THING THAT HAPPENED!
oh yes before we got to watch NEW MOON!
we were trying to rush, and i was in front leading the way..
and i saw hall 2 ( which was supposed to be our hall)
and i just went into the door NEXT TO IT.
and then we walked in, and saw a weird movie playing..
and then everyone looked shocked that we came in.
and then the weird movie TOTALLY DID NOT look like NEW MOON..
meishan said that she was trying very hard to convince herself that the movie was new moon..
wells but it was not.. and after laughing and contemplating for very long,
aurelia decided that it was NOT NEW MOON..
and we went out.. cause the characters in the movie, started to play guitar hero ( i think)
and it was so malu! we went into the wrong hall! ><
sorry, and i was the one leading the way ><
and i think the people inside the movie theatre must be thinking wewere siao..
yups, in the end we found our way to the RIGHT PLACE ( thankfully)

yeps and after the movie,
melissa left to go play guitar hero with her friend,
while we left in search of SAKAE SUSHI!
and we only found ICHIBAN SUSHI after looking for the customer service conuter for so long..
and >< we decided to go city hall ;D
and we found sakae! and we sat down
and just started to eat like mad :D
well not mad..
me and jiachee started rather slowly..
like slowly eating..
then meishan and aurelia were eating really fast,
like in 5-10 mins, 12 plates of sushi was eaten down already..
and so we decided to have a match! yay;D
and meishan and aurelia were in the lead from the start till the end!
and we talked while we ate, hmm sushi is nice<3
oh yes, and there was a time whereby meishan and aurelia decided to walk around city link
to help with the digestion of food,
and during that tme, jiachee and xinhui was trying desperately to catch up
by eating more sushi, but it kinda of failed horribly..
cause meishan and aurelia still felt very full,
and xinhui and jiachee didnt catch up! oh man!
hmm we lost, by 2 plates and one bowl of chanwanmushi! D:
its a little, but aurelia says its a lot, actaally it is XD
oh well! it was a funn dayy ;D
and when we reached the MRT, the most magical thing happened,.
aurelia found a movie ticket that she watched for TWILIGHT on 17 dec 2008
and she watch NEW MOON on 17 dec 2009!
HOW COOL IS THAT!
she watched newmoon EXACTLY ONE YEAR after she watched TWILIGHT!
so cool! and while we were WOW-ING over the fact, we saw the MRT train come,and had to rush!
and that was the end of campchallenge oasis patrol outing 09 <3
and i shall end here
i realised i have been writing long posts! :D
till the next time...

cheersnadloves,
iloveoasisyay!, XINHUI!

Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past, stop planning the future, stop trying to figure out precisely how we feel, stop deciding with our mind what we want our heart to feel., and sometimes we just have to go with "whatever happens, happens."

oasis!

2009-12-15T02:32:00.000-08:00

am back frm camp christine! <3
and also very grateful for everything that i have!
concrete ground, and all the nice toilets that we have! LOVE THEM ALL!
camp in the outdoors made me realise that we have been taking everything for granted..
dont complain about the toilets in nanyang, cause they rock!
;D yes and dont complain about kitchens anywhere, cause at least you have a kitchen!
finally woke up after half a day of hibernation, and by hibernation i mean = sleeping then eating then sleeping.
okay sounds totally like a life of a pig, but ah yes.
and now that its finally post-camp challenge, somehow i feel empty.
and i realised that camp challenge has been the thing making me busy all this while.
we may have been busy, but ah yes, its all worth it! :D

and so this shall be the journal that tellls everything that happened during camp challenge!
sec twos:
melissa (tanned)-the really cute goofy girl!
chiou chyong- the wisest of us all
jiachee- the most injury-prone among all of us
xinhui- me! the one with the cracking kness

sec threes:
sheryl: she can sing really well, and likes to play music for everyone!
cheryee: her laughter is really big (:

PS:
meishan: she may look scary at certain times, but she is really nice~

PL:
aurelia: she goes red, really easily,!

and so together we make up our really nice, goofy, funny, enthu patrol : OASIS! <3

and so we all went to camp chrisitine, together feeling really excited to set up the campsite..
and so when we first started, we WERE REALLY ENTHU and stuff..
but soon our energy level got lower and lower and lower..
and by the time everyone's gadgets were up, ours were still not up..
and were getting more anxious by the minute.
and it was just hectic,
but we got by even whenn we were all at our very veyrveyr lowest!
and we had to bend down to tie the baggage rack, which could easily drive anyone crazy..
everyone was just drained out.. and on the first night, everyone slept really well i guess..
cause the entire patrol skipped supper and slept!

and on day 2, we were all woken up by sheryl's phone :qing ren jie!
and it went like: hello baby~~ and we were like !?!? lols, and everyone woke up!
even aurelia! we didnt have to all go and wake her up!
and second day can be counted as the most exciting day that we had!
we had AMAZING RACE!
if you ask me now what we did, all i can say is: WE RAN LIKE NO BODY BUSINESS!
WE RAN LIKE WE HAD NEVER RAN BEFORE!
we were like chionging and chioning and chionging and chionging and chionging.
yeps islandwide.
and by islandwide, it also includes CHANGI AIRPORT
and so we ran.. cause we wanted to get to places really badly. ><
and we were late by like 40 mins.. which was like ----
ah D: but then we were at the other end of singapore,a nd to get back
we had to get to the other end of singapore D:
and so that night was also another early night. cause we were too tired already

yeps and third day!
we had our second challenge, and so all of us spliited up to go to perform different tasks.
jiachee me and meishan were sent to outdoor cooking,
and were sent to a place called bollywood veggies!
which was where we were supposed to do outdoor cooking!
and so we turfed a really nice pit! yay;D to meishan who did the marking!
and we lit with one matchstick! :D yay to the guide frm BBS i am so sorry i forgot her name,
but she helped with the lazy man method!
and we helped with trying very hard to keep the fire there,
and the food prep ppl rocked too! which includes jiachee and jane and another BBS guide( sorry again!)
kudos to jiachee cause she managed to cook without a pot!
especially trying to coook the pancakes!
yups and all the food turned out SUPER FABULOUS!
so nicee!
and then the nicer part came when we got to eat at the poison ivy cafe!
we had like super nice food!
nice<3
and we had campfire! where we made new friends!
even though i didnt know their names ! they were really nice to me! <3
and i clearly rmb lixian frm greenridge!
they were really a nice bunch of people!
cause they helped me and sheryl to eat the honeydews!
i think we ate like 7-8 honeydews! honeydews<3

yeps and DAY 4 was striking camp day!
it was kinda of tiring , cause all our energy were really drained out,
but then we still perservered on!
and we saw the last of our kitchen dresser! D:
and learned how to appreciate everything that was there!
our kitchen dresser was so nicee~~
all the effort was worth it!
and we finally striked camp and there was prize presentation
and we finally got up the super nice bus to leave!
hmm and now camp's finally over!
and i realised that WEST DIVISION IS A REALLY NICE DIVISION!
we might not have been the most enthu division, but there are really nice people!
and if you ever need help, you can just ask help from any patrol!
and i realised the OASIS! is really nice! <3 i miss oasis<3

thankyous!
thankyou aurelia for ever being so high, and planning all the training sessions, and being there to lead us as a PL! THANK YOU!
thankyou meishan for being extremely nice and talking to us , and sorry for punching you in the middle of the night D: and being there to lead us as a PS! THANKYOU!

thankyou sheryl for being extremely patient! sorry for always taking yout stuff or forgetting about your stuff..D: i know i am a blur sotong D: THANKYOU!

thankyou cheryee for everything that you have done! also for being so high everytime too! hope you get well soon! THANKYOU!

thankyou melissa for always cheering everyone and making everyone laugh! you really are a goofy goober!
thank you for always being there~! THANKYOU!

thankyou chiouchyong for always being the sane one and always helping out with everything there is! you really am super duper nice! THANK YOU!

thank you jiachee for always being there and always so patient! i know i almost killed you with the two sixty inch poles! and everything that i have sort of done!~ SORRY! i know i am a super duper big sotong now! THANKYOU!

thankyou MS TENG! for always being there whenever we had training sessions to give all the advice, and also for cheering us up during camp! thankyou for every single thing you have done! XIEXIE!

and also a big thankyou to all the seniors for helping us out with the kitchen dresser and all of our other gadgets! THANK YOU VERY MUCH!

AND A SUPER BIG THANKYOU TO OASIS FOR BEING THERE NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENED, ALWAYS BEING CHEERFUL AND KEEPING THE MORALE UP!~ GO OASIS! :D
OASIS WE ROCK<3

and with that i shall end my post !

cheersandloves,
thekindaofstillinhibernation,XINHUI!

memories i'll have for life!

lies):

2009-12-08T03:50:00.000-08:00

cannot take the SHUO HUANG song anymore..
its like playing and playing and playing in my head..
and when i typed lin you jia in youtube, the first name that came out was SHUO HUANG D:
hmm, this is all thanks to MELISSA,
who very nicely kept singing!
and somehow a whole new world is better! i agree with meishan!:D
at least the tune does not get stuckk in my head,
and when i hear it,i have the feeling that i lied or sth. -.-
melissa has the power that whenever she sings a song, everyone will rmb for LIFE( oh wait, only that day)
today will probably be the last training session we will have D: besides the time when we are free.
its like getting getting more stressed by the min,
because we seem to have a lot of stuff not done..
and its like..
wah D:
lets pray/hope that everything will be done by then!
and we will do so cause we can!<3
hmm, and tmr is atc, and i'm not packing my big bags to bring.. it just.. feels so not atc.
but i like the patrol log book ( file)! :D XD
and i have the sudden realisation i have not helped the sec ones put the phone no. up o:
oh man..
okay shall do it now (:
the conclusion is, i just feel like its not camp nowD:

OH and suddenly i rmb the INCIDENT OF MY MISSING PHONE.
and so we went to eat lunch, and somehow my phone got 'lost'
and somehow when i ask jiachee to call my phone,
she didnt realise that something was vibrating next to here.
and so we really thought i left my phone in the sch,
and so we started to go back to sch,
and in the meanwhile calling my hp like thousands of times,
and sudddenly someone picks up,
and jiachee says " hello, this is my friend's phone"
and after a short period of discussion,
she suddenly throws her phone at me,
and i picked it up, and asked " who are you? "
( at that point of time, i really thought the sound sounded like aurelia)
and the persone replied " aurelia:"
and so i stared aat jiachee and asked" did you call wrong no.?"
and jiachee shook her head,
but before i could see that i said" hello, jiachee called the wrong no."
and after a lot of talking over the phone,
with aurelia passing the phone over to ping zheng
and finally getting stuff settled
we somehow realised that:
1. jiachee did not call the wrong no.
2. the phone was mine
3. the phone was at burger shack ( where we just came from)
4. the phone was picked up by aurelia
5. we just made a very pointless trip. D:
and when we finally figured all this stuff,
i think jiachee was ready to murder me in cold blood.
and she had this look that says " THIS IS SO EMBARRASSING "
and so we finally made our way back,
and found my phone, RIGHT NEXT TO JIACHEE'S BAG
and i was stil; wondering how jiachee could not hear the vibration D:
and apparently the moment when we got back, everyone started to laugh..
actually its quite funny.
ahh D:
at least my phone came back
lesson: search everywhere before you panic and come to the conclusion that YOUR PHONE IS LOST.
because sometimes, its not. D:
hmm, shall end here..
till the next time (:

cheerandloves,
thegirlwho"thought"herphonewaslost, xinhui

I cannot change the past,
but I can let it go.

adventure of the big retro funny green hairbands

2009-12-05T07:03:00.000-08:00

hello blog once again!
has been yet another 'fun:' day once again..
and so today was the *drumrolls*:
adventure of the big retro funny green hairbands
today, i went out with my mum hoping to find the big retro greeen hairbands..
and so we thought we could get them at TIONG BAHRU
and so we went there, to only find that the shop MOVED.
and so we thought we could find them at CHINATOWN
a few stops after tiongbahru,
but then what happened was that we found and met:
1.many BLINGBLING green hairband,
2.a very angry shopkeeper ( i didnt know why she was angry, but SHE WAS D: )
3.many BLACK HAIRBANDS
4.many HAIRBANDS that looked funny
5.many HAIRTIES
BUT NO BIG RETRO GREEN HAIRBANDS.
( oh wait, there was no green hairbands to start with..
cause everyshopkeepper said they did not have green hairbands D: )
and so we (sadly) made our way to BUKIT BATOK ( west mall)
and went to MAY FASHION
and we found:
MANY BIG RETRO FUNNY GREEN HAIRBANDS!
and so MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!
after going around the singapore island XD
i wanted to find the normal nice green ones but i could not find!
but at least i found the :
big retro funny green hairbands!
and they shall be name as this, cause i found them! :D
and to any camp challenger thats reading this:
its 5-6 times bigger than the normal hairband, so be prepared (:
and so i shall end my story here, and so will the post end here(:
till the next time...(:

cheersnadloves,
thefounderobigretrofunnygreenhairbands, XINHUI(:

Friends are the ones that would give the world to you.
Best friends are the ones that already have.

hmm i am on a blogging mood!

2009-12-03T03:40:00.000-08:00

HELLO BLOG,
i am in a blogging mood thus the reason i am blogging now:D
this is mainly because I GOT MY FACEBOOK ACCT BACKK
unbelievable right! yes i think so.
somehow now i think that at least facebook has a heart to return my my ACCT:D
and realised that i had already started to add other ppl, but oh wells :D

guzheng~
I CANNOT BELIEVE IT . BUT I PASSED.
woots :D
i am so darn happyy, cause i was thinking i would fail..
considering how bad my hands were shaking:D
but the point is that I PASSED.
i have a new perception of the scary kao guann againnn :D
she is nice after all.
okay she looked scary, but then you cant judge a book by its cover!
so the kao guan is still nice :D
hmm am veryveryveryveryveryveryveryvery HAPPPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY now!

CAMPCHALLENGE
i think and suspect i would be able to blog everday abt camp challenge
mainly because i have camp challenge training everyday!
hmm though my holiday is like half gone... mainly because of camp stuff
but ah wells, i still believe in it being worth it:D
and so, today we did kitchen dresser, which was quite screwed..
and looks really you know not-very-nice.
but then when we tried to do it another time,
we failed, not because we didnt manage to do it,
more rather because the sky didnt allow us to D:
IT RAINED!
D: D: D: D:
am very sad that it rained because even if its very nice to slp on rainy days
we cant train on rainy day and the ground will become muddy D;
which is very bad cause we still need to rely on the ground!
wahh, i really really hope that the ground in camp christine is STRONG
and can hold our gadgets!
in the end we did shoe rack on the ground..
and it stood!! which was nice :D
and it looked pretty nice :D
which is good ;D
we still left a few untried gadgets BUT we would be able to finish!
CAUSE WE CAN!
i still believe in the cause we can theory!
oh yes, melissa in any case you are reading this,
you know you are the goofiest person i have ever seeen;D
and jiachee, yes i know you are reading this( i hope i am right)
i am glad you have your own tweezer now. lols
and any silent reader who is reading this;
i am in an extremely extremely happy happy mood ;D
yay;D
cant believe that i am actually blogging, but yes i amXD
and thatsd pretty much for todayy:D
OH YES AND I SAW LARISAAA TODAYY! (:
which makes it a HAPPYYY DAYY ! ;D

cheersnadloves,
theveryveyrveyrhappy, xinhui.

ITS A GOOD DAY TODAY,
and it will be too tmr :D

sore throat

2009-12-02T06:22:00.001-08:00

i've got a sore throat now D:

WELL DONE.

camp challenge

have been trainings these few weeks,and my muscles have been aching ever since..

even though its really tough, somehow you still feel like going on.

even though its tough, but at least you know you arent alone at all.

even though its tough, but i guess its all worth it.

even though its tough, everyone is there and going through the same thing, so must JIAN CHI!

even though its tough, no matter what happens, we are still gonna be there for another

so, oasis must jian chi!

and jiachee be careful dont fall or get yourself injured anymore!

and melissa, thank you for always saying your lame jokes, and making everyone laugh. really its THAT lame,

and the rest of the camp challenge team! oasis: aurelia, meishan, chiouchyong,sheryl <3

da jia lets jian chi dao di <3

CAUSE WE CAN <3

FACEBOOK.

am very angry with facebook. because they banned my acct D< AND ITS NOT MY FAULT!

AND THIS IS WHAT IT WROTE:

Hi Xin Hui,
 
Your account has been temporarily suspended for security purposes.

Our systems indicate that your Facebook account has been compromised

by cybercriminals attempting to impersonate you.

These criminals often will try to trick your friends into sending

them money by claiming that you are stuck in a far away location

and need assistance.

It is possible that your email account was compromised as well.

As such, we have sent this email to all email accounts recently

associated with your account.

Obtaining access to a victim's email is one of the primary ways

these cybercriminals have been operating.

and i guess if you are reading this you will get what is happening.

ahh

 WO ZHEN DE SHI WU HUA KE SHUO LE.

and i shall end here :D

cheersnadloves,

thepersondownwithsorethorat,XINHUI

you, just seem so.. faraway..

and sometimes i just dont get this world anymore.

Why do we sometimes still want to
go back to the past when we know
there's something better waiting in the future?
Common cause is: Expecting.
Then things just didn't work the way we wanted it to be.

lifejournal

2009-11-23T01:38:00.000-08:00

GOTTA GO CREATE LIVEJOURNAL!
choongjiachee you better add me D<

hello world

2009-11-04T04:06:00.000-08:00

hello(:
finally i decided after a veryveryveyr long contemplation decided to return to blogging;D
ahh am veryvery sad tha i am going to china and not with the other who are going to malacca.
ahh and they DONT WANNA HAVE CONFERENCE WITH ME ON 9TH NOV D<
larisa.avril you watch out:D i promise i will be spamming phone calls:D
and yuemin very nicely volunteered to let me call here.
see, be nicer, and everyone will love you. :D
interclass games rocked, cause i had LTMC and i didnt have to play!
instead i was next to avril helping her;D
NICE!
anadnadnad we WON :D
yay we rocked too;D
and i rmb screaming very loudly everytime we score a goal:D
:D :D :D :D :D :D :D

SENTOSA
i do not wish to emphasize on HOW HOT it was AT SENTOSA.,
i promise you could have like cooked an egg there just right there IN THE SUN.
see how terrible it is?
and we all turned into CHAODA TOMATOS when we came back.
apparently sun block didnt really helpp ):
AND BUILDING SANDCASTLES IN A WEATHER LIKE THAT AINT FUN AT ALL!
and yuemin and i were really pissed at some ppl that i prefer not to mention who.
its pretty much obvious, but i think they are the one that are oblivious to their surroundings.,

MUSEUM
museum trip.again.
at the same place. again.
doing kinda of the same thing.again.
how nice. D:
and we got lectured by the guide on:
how to behave in the public like a nanyang girl.
trust me we werent the only ones,
even mrs heng was "lectured".
how nice
apparently she kept saying we were bored. which was true.
considering the fact that we were ultra tired and we were at the SAME PLACE.
and considering the fact that we were actually only staring at paintings,
but she could talk about TEN lines or more about the same painting.
in the end both parties got fed-up.
and so she scolded us.
well done.
but i guess we had certain points we really had to improve on
i wont deny that,
but i believe that we were exactly being a nuisance to public.
and what really pissed us off was that:
she even told tourists that she just lectured us, as if it was a good thing D:
and we could kinda of hear that she was comparing us to rgs,
cause she said:
"my daughter is in rgs, ..."
and the rest i really couldnt rmb.
okay i really should stop ranting.
really. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
suddenly feel like going to the beach to throw stone!
THROWING STONE REALLY RELEASES STRESS.

FAREWELL GIFTS
have been chionging farewell gifts;D
really really pleased with myself and jiachee and everyone else that helped:D
we are awwesome :D yay;D
wanted to cope one for myself de! lols lols :D

ATC 09! takeflight; reach!
we are a bunch or trees that are gonna rock your world :D
CANT WAIT FOR EVERYTHING :D
though the stress is like piling up,
ahh but we;ll all get by:D
jiayous, reach, and maplee:D

cheersandloves,
XINHUI! yay!

Don't let your anger get the

best of you and make you stop loving.

Because once you get past all your anger

the one you love may not be there anymore.

hi blogger

2009-10-26T04:13:00.000-07:00

HI BLOGGER.
i know i have been like daoing you for a long long long time already.
okay, now i am like ultra busy, and i absolutely hate being busy.
B-U-S-Y.
-.-
i really really just wanna sit down with my com and go crazy watching all the dramas
and forget about everything at least for the moment.
the moment everything that you need to do crashed down on you,
you feel the pressure.
you feel everything.
thought finishing EOYS was hard.
now post EOYS life is even harder.
mind is filled with thousands of things to do.
i played my hardest, and now i'm just tired. ):
gotta start feeling happy cause thaats the only way i can finish everything on time(:

cheersandloves,
XINHUI:D

In life, don't just trust people who
change their feelings with time.
Instead, trust those people whose feelings
remain the same even when time changes.

positive

2009-09-29T06:01:00.000-07:00

why must lifw be so hard):
staying strong is no longer a option, its a must.
this just cannot be put in words, and i really really wannt to just quit,
but life doesnt really have a QUIT button does it?
whatever it is, pull through this period, and you'll be fine.
neoxinhui, you better do it, cause its the onl\y way out.

phsyiotheraphy was nice(:
physiotheraphist was even nicer:D
she really nice, and the machine was super duper cool..
DEAR LEG,
IF YOU EVER SEE THIS, PLS GET WELL SOON, BECAUSE, I WANT TO DO STUFF LIKE PE SOOON, SO YOU HAVE TO GET WELL, AND DONT LET ME FALL ANYMORE!
understand?
i hope it does.

cheersnadloves,
XINHUI, stay strong.

why are people so hard to understand, even when i am one of them.

i thought i tried my best

2009-09-16T04:23:00.000-07:00

i thought i tired my best, but things didnt go the way i thought.
i tell myself it okay, but its not.
why must today be so horrible D:

cheersandloves,
~~xinhui.~~

when tears start appearing, it just means i cant do it anymore.
when they start disappearing, it means i'm just pretending.

tired..><

2009-09-10T01:59:00.000-07:00

Always smile.
Even if it's a sad smile.
Because even a sad smile is better
than the sadness of not knowing how to smile at all.(:

cheersandloves,
the super duper tired, xinhui(:
(too tired to blog..)

-don't know why i am tired, ahh but just super tired,
and the pile of hw isnt helping either.:/

If you hold back feelings because you're
afraid of getting hurt, you end up hurting, anyway.

heritage trail 09

2009-09-08T05:54:00.000-07:00

HELLO!
since jiachee and amelia is not online, and i'm bored,
i shall post abt HERITAGE TRAIL 2009(:
hmm, station 5 was kinda of tiring(not as tired as the game marshals), ahh but it was fun:D
was quite nervous before the first team came, ah but it was okay after that..
after the first team left, there was suddenly a sudden quiet-ness.
and me and hidayah were pretty bored..
then we waited and waited and waited and then the next team came,
and wanting came to our station too(:
because her team got disqualified for some reasons,
and after that two teams came around the same time,a
and after that no teams came already..
heritage trail 2009 was a really successful one (:
and it was a pretty nice experience :D :D
didnt regret that i was a part of this wonderful experience,
and the late nights chionging proposals paid off :D

oh and after that we had a 1/3 batch outing,
and then we went plaza sing, ate carl's juniorm, kinda of gossiped,
really loudly....oops?
and then we also went to COMICS CONNECTION.
okay, and yulin didnt eat lunch, and spent 17 dollars of jaejoong( i think thats how you spell it)
i was like OH MY GOSH. 17 dollars. WOW.
and jiachee acted like an auntie inside, and amelia and jiachee went totoally crazy..
me and nyssa and daphne nad jiayu decided to go daiso,
and leave the hua chis together,
and we found really cute stuff..
and then daphne was going crazy over CHICKENS,
and then she touched everything that was related to chicken!
and then we sort of found our batch farewell gift! super duper cuteeee:D
and the rest came, and we started talking abt some batch tie thing
whats a batch tie btw,
i need a picture, i am a look not hear person.
lols and tried to look for it at plaza sing, but it was a utter failure,
and then me and nyssa tried looking for her water bottle but it was an untter failure too.):
oh yes, and we went into a shop
JUST BECAUSE THE SHOP WAS PLAYING: because i'm stupid- SS501(:
oh and after me nad daphne went into the toilet,
then we came out and called them, and found out that they were at the music shop SEMBAWANG.
then we had a super really comical converstaion:

me: talks on the phone for a while
daphne: so where are they?
me: sembawang..
daphene: SEMBWANG!!?!?! so fast!?!? ( currently has this really shocked expression)
me: yes, sembawang.
daphne: (sees music shop SEMBAWANG) and started laughing like madness
me: started laughing like madness too. lols.( laughter is contagious)
(this is really lame but oh wells(:)
and soon later we went back home,
and actually wanted to take bus, but ended taking the mrt with amelia and jiachee(:

cheersandloves,
the pretty tired, xinhui(:

how much i hate blogger

2009-09-07T08:00:00.000-07:00

dear blogger,

you have successfully make me want to pull all my hair out today.D:

Ivp
hmm, had Ivp,
and felt that we actually didnt had to go, really. a
and also, it was super hilarious,
cause actually we ( kellin and i) , were SUPER HUNGRY.
and the talk was kinda of boring,
and kellin actually brought food,
so we actually had kinda of a picnic there.
oops:/
but then our stomachs were like protesting non-stop
and demanded that it needed food so yah...
overall, it was kinda of boring,
WISHED I HAD GONE FOR CCA T.T

current situation:
and i am really really dead because i have not studied physics.
math.chinese.history.geog.language arts.

AHH I AM GONNA FAIL EOYS.

dead.

havent been playing guzheng either. guzheng exam coming...

WHAT HAVE I BEEN DOING.

die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.

neoxinhui, you are not allowed to screw your end of years up.

okay from now onwards i promise to not use the com unless required.

emphasizes, UNLESS REQUIRED.

:D thats all for now,

and have been eating ice cream like i have never eaten them before D:

and it feelin quite hungry now, i spy OREO in my drawer;D

cheersandloves,

THE HUNGRY XINHUI:D

Don't count the days;
make the days count.

term 3 progress report):

2009-09-06T05:39:00.000-07:00

AHH just saw my term 3 progress report
VERY HORRIBLEE DIEE.
NEO XIN HUI SHALL USE THE COM
LESS OFTEN
AND CONCENTRATE ON STUDIES.
i have to do well. i have to do well. i have to do well.
i am going to write sth like that and paste it all over my room.
in case i fall asleep while studying i can then stare at that;D
hmm, good idea.
I MUST DO WELL!;D
jiayous everybody, and happy mugging;D
AND JIAYOUS FOR HERITAGE TRAIL 2009! ;D
and my leg is getting better!
didnt give way for a whole week already
LEG, plsplsplspls get well, i dont wanna fall anymore <3

cheersandloves,
currently doesnt wanna mug, but must mug, xinhui

pain is inevitable. suffering is optional.

!

2009-08-31T07:59:00.000-07:00

HELLO BLOGGER.
THANKS A LOT FOR CREATING LOTSA PROB FOR ME (:
THANKS A LOT FOR ALWAYS LOADING PICTURES SO SLOWLY.
AND LASTLY, THANKS FOR ALWAYS HANGING UP HALFWAY(:
i really cant say out how appreciative i am of blogger.
ah have this temptation to change, anyone, just one person,
encourages me to change, i really think i will..
hmm xanga's too complicated,
i'll probably use LJ, but then i kinda of "hate" it too..
sorry for any LJ USERS OUT THERE..

amm feeling really reflective right now.):
just went blog-hopping, and read many many I MEAN MANY emo posts:/
i mean like really.
and its kinda of sad.
i guess i am a pretty emotional person,
and when i read, tears almost came out.
ahh, okay shant talk abt this anymore, but really, CHEER UP DA JIA(:

still rmb that day b4 crabflower, i totally just kinda of broke down ,
i guess i must have shocked you guys,
but that time,
i was really tired. truly.
so yah...

and yes, jiachee,
if i made you worried or anything,
uh yah sorrie for just daoing you that day,
i was just tired.
and havent been in the best of moods this few days.

okays, today went back to rulang,
then left for sakura<3
with TING, AND HAZEL!
ahh then went to bugis, too neoprint, and then kino, then went home!
i admit i was quite malu on the MRT:/

and when i was on the way home,
i was way tired.
didnt know what came over me,
just felt like slumping down on the bed,
and this is really the first time i have been this tired
i really couldnnt take it and i just wanted to close my eyes.
that moment, that second and not wake up till like...
and i couldnt even see my mum even thought she was in front of me,
i was in a total daze
could have just fainted. ><
and really, have been so darn tired,
and mum keeps scolding me, for staying up late even though i am damm tired.
she sees that i'm tired too!
true,but then sometimes, things just dont go the way they are supposed to
feeling very depressed, and the tired-ness aint helping..:/
ahh just feel like giving up and not study and not do hw,
and just enjoy life(:
but still i gonna face REALITY.
life isnt that nice,
it doesnt land you in a bed of roses,
it lands you in a bed of roses with thorns.
(at this point, has no idea what i am typing, my hands are typing by itself:/)

whenever i wanted to give up,
i remembered why i held on for so long.
but this time round,
i'm not so sure, if i'll be able to hold on,
but i know,
even if it kills me, i'm still gonna smile
for laughter was what kept me going.

cheersandloves,
xinhui.

when you're too tired to do anything,
best thing to do is sleep.
it helps, really.

!

2009-08-25T07:04:00.000-07:00

AHH.
dying. no idea why i feel so tired.
i feel like sleeping on my study table now D:
why is like everyone abround me ( besides larisa tan) emoing abt sth.D:
and i would have a huge shoutout to choong jiachee
cause i noe you are a silent reader of this dead blog:D
STOP BEING PARANOID!
AND REALLY, DONT BE SO UPSET OVER CERTAIN STUFF ALREADY.
chill man, and really, dont be so upset. :D smile.:D
and btw stop getting yourself injured! it isnt funnyD:
ahh had cca session today,
SOMEHOW, i still think the noodle lacked some soya sauce!
and very sorry about the APPLE.
i guess the cinnamon didn had sugar, and tasted funny.
but ahh yes, IT WAS FUN:D
yay outdoor cooking <3
okay i shall stop here for the moment, and try to update more:D

cheersandloves,
XINHUI

even if life says no,
i still insists YES.

150809

2009-08-15T22:26:00.000-07:00

okay, so let me start. i am super super tired.
basically because of yesterday..
had heritage trail..
and i had the most horrible time of my life.. waiting while standing..
cause we got chased away when we stood in front of chinatown point.
and we changed places like more than once.
really, and i waited adn waited and waited and waited and waited..
and then finally a team came:/
so, well it was a nice experience i guess, working with hidayah,
and even though it wasnt easy, but it was fun:D
and sihui came to talk to me for like the last hour while we were waiting for the last team:D
i almost fell asleep waiting..:/
lols, but jiahcee waited for 1HOUR AND 35 MINUTES.
so i guess, i really is not that bad after all:D
and we had macs for lunch with some of the batchies:D
and after that we took MRT to nyssa's hse for her birthday party! <3
and amelia, if you see this, do not post my sleeping pic up.:/
and yups, IT WAS FAB;D
we played MONOPOLY. the game which has no element of excitement AT ALL.
so, we gave up, and not before long, WE WENT TO THE KARAOKE place~
AND WE SANG KARAOKE! YAY!
and it was pretty high:D
and i truly believe we sang a lot of FEI LUN HAI AND LUO ZHI XIANG songs!
I AM SURE:D
oh yes, and not forgetting bang bang tang. lols.
yeps. and melissa looked like she was watching TV
with her mouth half open:D
really, really. she looked so funny!
but she caught me taking her pic and i had to stop..
and i just kept laughing whenever i saw her today.
and she kept asking WHY!
lols, after that we went to her hse and played STRESS!
and also, her friends came,
and then amelia looked a bit sad, but ah wells:D
CHEER UP AMELIA!
yups, and then we had dinner,
and watched harry potter and then BOF.
we got delayed because of BOF...
and then we cut cake~ the cake was super NICE;D
it tasted like FERRERO ROCHEO ]
so nice~
nyssa! where you buy your cake de! must tell me okay! ITS SUPER NICE.
after that it was quite late ler, so we went back:D
and jiachee and i took mrt back<3
lols, and i kinda of felt like dying,
cause i woke up at 6 and reached home at 9sth..
super super super tiring,:/
ah wells, I HAD FUN:D
OKAY, THATS ALL FOR NOW:D

cheersandloves,
thewannaslpxinhui;D

There are some things in life
that are just not worth rushing,
especially something that you wish would last forever.

2009-08-11T06:51:00.000-07:00

somehow, today was today was super tiring,
with all the scorching sun and burning boots..
but i feel HAPPY:D
oh yes, and congratulations to all the new FCS!
JIAYOUS:D
tired but happy,
a very pleasant feeling:D
ahh, quoting from melissa:
"my feet are sending signals to my brain that i cannot move":D
VERY VERY sure leg will ache like crap. ><

cheerandloves,
thesupertired,xinhui

Sometimes you just have to realize that you
can't have it all. Some things are just out of
your hands. you need to move on try to
be happy, even if it's the hardest thing you'll
ever have to do.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

2009-08-08T23:46:00.000-07:00

happy birthday SINGAPORE! :D:D
and i'm happy:D

CHEERANDLOVES,
happybirthdaysingapore,SAYS XINHUI!

<3

super super unlucky day.-.-

2009-08-07T06:44:00.002-07:00

TODAY IS LIKE THE SUPER SUPER SUPER UNLUCKY DAY TO GO OUT.
unlucky things just LOVE to me, larisa and i think kellin made it worse.

FIRSTLY, kellin had to stay back, and then we had to wait for her.
after that, she suddenly said we had to meet her at Plaza singapura,
which meant we had to go back to cine after that.-.-
so we very nicely went to plaza sing for her.

SECONDLY, i nearly sprained my ankle (which is hurting now) while waiting for the bus to plaza sing.
no idea how i did it though. thinks i am very pro now..

THIRDLY, we kinda of missed TWO buses,due to the super enthusiastic crowd which was
fighting for a place on the bus, and we didnt really bother to squeeze with everyone..

FOURTH, my SHOELACES got STUCK at the elevator at PLAZA SING, and everyone almost fell on me,
luckily i was able to escape. if not...

FIFTH, me and larisa had to search every single restaurant and food court, and could not find a place to eat.
reallly, we took like ONE HOUR to finally land a seat at long john silver.

SIXTH,we were supposed to go back to cine, after meeting kellin, and so we took 174 back,
and WE MISSED OUR STOP all the way to CROWN CENTRE. how fab. and we nicely crossed the bridge, hoping for a 174 bus
and we saw a 174 bus pass us right in front of our eyes.

SEVENTH, WHEN WE WERE FINALLY GOT TO CINE, the movie UP for 4:00-4;30 were ALL BOOKED.
and then we had to take the 5:00 pm one, and it was THE FRONT ROLL.
sit until neck pain, and hear until ears pain.-.-

EIGHTH,MY BUS HIT A CAR. -.- this totally made my day.

NINTH, kellin parent were waiting for her at PLAZA SING and she was at cine.
i bet she waited for like ONE WHOLE HOUR.

see NINE things in total, and more than half were on me.
REALLY. I THINK I AM DAMM LUCKY TOADY.
SUPER USEFUL TIP: do not go out on a holiday, its much better to go home and sleep:D
another useful tip: when you see BOTANIC GARDENS, WITHOUT DOUBT, you ARENT in ORCHARD anymore.
oh last but not least: TELL YOUR PARENTS THE RIGHT PLACE THAT YOU ARE AT, to avoid mass confusion:D
oh and saw shiao wei and vanessa at Plaza sing! saw them like two times:D
may my luck be better tmr. "crosses her fingers super tightly"

cheeersandloves,
thesupersupersuperunlucky,xinhui

i really wonder, how unlucky can i get?

super super unlucky day.-.-

2009-08-07T06:44:00.001-07:00

TODAY IS LIKE THE SUPER SUPER SUPER UNLUCKY DAY TO GO OUT.
unlucky things just LOVE to HAPPEN ON me, larisa and i think kellin made it worse.

FIRSTLY, kellin had to stay back, and then we had to wait for her.
after that, she suddenly said we had to meet her at Plaza singapura,
which meant we had to go back to cine after that.-.-
so we very nicely went to plaza sing for her.

SECONDLY, i nearly sprained my ankle (which is hurting now) while waiting for the bus to plaza sing.
no idea how i did it though. thinks i am very pro now..

THIRDLY, we kinda of missed TWO buses,due to the super enthusiastic crowd which was
fighting for a place on the bus, and we didnt really bother to squeeze with everyone..

FOURTH, my SHOELACES got STUCK at the elevator at PLAZA SING, and everyone almost fell on me,
luckily i was able to escape. if not...

FIFTH, me and larisa had to search every single restaurant and food court, and could not find a place to eat.
reallly, we took like ONE HOUR to finally land a seat at long john silver.

SIXTH,we were supposed to go back to cine, after meeting kellin, and so we took 174 back,
and WE MISSED OUR STOP all the way to CROWN CENTRE. how fab. and we nicely crossed the bridge, hoping for a 174 bus
and we saw a 174 bus pass us right in front of our eyes.

SEVENTH, WHEN WE WERE FINALLY GOT TO CINE, the movie UP for 4:00-4;30 were ALL BOOKED.
and then we had to take the 5:00 pm one, and it was THE FRONT ROLL.
sit until neck pain, and hear until ears pain.-.-

EIGHTH,MY BUS HIT A CAR. -.- this totally made my day.

NINTH, kellin parent were waiting for her at PLAZA SING and she was at cine.
i bet she waited for like ONE WHOLE HOUR.

see NINE things in total, and more than half were on me.
REALLY. I THINK I AM DAMM LUCKY TOADY.
SUPER USEFUL TIP: do not go out on a holiday, its much better to go home and sleep:D
another useful tip: when you see BOTANIC GARDENS, WITHOUT DOUBT, you ARENT in ORCHARD anymore.
oh last but not least: TELL YOUR PARENTS THE RIGHT PLACE THAT YOU ARE AT, to avoid mass confusion:D
oh and saw shiao wei and vanessa at Plaza sing! saw them like two times:D
may my luck be better tmr. "crosses her fingers super tightly"

cheeersandloves,
thesupersupersuperunlucky,xinhui

i really wonder, how unlucky can i get?

super super unlucky day.-.-

2009-08-07T06:44:00.000-07:00

TODAY IS LIKE THE SUPER SUPER SUPER UNLUCKY DAY TO GO OUT.
unlucky things just LOVE to HAPPEN ON me, larisa and i think kellin made it worse.

FIRSTLY, kellin had to stay back, and then we had to wait for her.
after that, she suddenly said we had to meet her at Plaza singapura,
which meant we had to go back to cine after that.-.-
so we very nicely went to plaza sing for her.

SECONDLY, i nearly sprained my ankle (which is hurting now) while waiting for the bus to plaza sing.
no idea how i did it though. thinks i am very pro now..

THIRDLY, we kinda of missed TWO buses,due to the super enthusiastic crowd which was
fighting for a place on the bus, and we didnt really bother to squeeze with everyone..

FOURTH, my SHOELACES got STUCK at the elevator at PLAZA SING, and everyone almost fell on me,
luckily i was able to escape. if not...

FIFTH, me and larisa had to search every single restaurant and food court, and could not find a place to eat.
reallly, we took like ONE HOUR to finally land a seat at long john silver.

SIXTH,we were supposed to go back to cine, after meeting kellin, and so we took 174 back,
and WE MISSED OUR STOP all the way to CROWN CENTRE. how fab. and we nicely crossed the bridge, hoping for a 174 bus
and we saw a 174 bus pass us right in front of our eyes.

SEVENTH, WHEN WE WERE FINALLY GOT TO CINE, the movie UP for 4:00-4;30 were ALL BOOKED.
and then we had to take the 5:00 pm one, and it was THE FRONT ROW.
sit until neck pain, and hear until ears pain.-.-

EIGHTH,MY BUS HIT A CAR. -.- this totally made my day.

NINTH, kellin parent were waiting for her at PLAZA SING and she was at cine.
i bet she waited for like ONE WHOLE HOUR.

see NINE things in total, and more than half were on me.
REALLY. I THINK I AM DAMM LUCKY TOADY.
SUPER USEFUL TIP: do not go out on a holiday, its much better to go home and sleep:D
another useful tip: when you see BOTANIC GARDENS, WITHOUT DOUBT, you ARENT in ORCHARD anymore.
oh last but not least: TELL YOUR PARENTS THE RIGHT PLACE THAT YOU ARE AT, to avoid mass confusion:D
oh and saw shiao wei and vanessa at Plaza sing! saw them like two times:D
may my luck be better tmr. "crosses her fingers super tightly"

cheeersandloves,
thesupersupersuperunlucky,xinhui

i really wonder, how unlucky can i get?

I MISS MY COM. -.-

2009-08-04T04:38:00.000-07:00

i am really missing my laptop tp bits.
i very cleverly banned myself from the com, and now i regret.):
i probably got the -love the com too much- sickness.:/
taking whatever time i have left to type this post.
I REALLY REALLY HOPE I WILL PULL THROUGH THIS BLOCKTEST.
really.
i cannot afford to screw up another time.
really.

cheersandloves,
missinghercomALOT,xinnhui

you tell me why i held on for so long,
when i really really felt like giving up.

):

2009-07-30T03:09:00.000-07:00

exhausted.

longer post<3

2009-07-26T07:08:00.000-07:00

okay this is the LONGER POST that i promised(:
first, i shall start with friday!
friday: 1st cca session since so long!
IT WAS FAB(:
the sec threes really put a lot of effort into planning that cca session,
and we all see it,
except that i think that we were really kinda of un-enthu):
must learn to be more enthu, and take more intiative! JIAYOUS SECS TWOS(:
yups, and i will be looking forward to cca sessions! :D:D
it was really fun:D
and we had fun with JC AND AMELIA AT KAP:D
though amelia seemed really really stresseed and tired.
we havent started revising for blocktest yett..
really really DEAD><

oh yes, and friday was prety fabulous
for i managed to cut my finger while opening a biscuit tin><
and i kinda of heard a "crack" sound while running, and my knee kinda of hurt><
and i managed to hand up the wrong sci worksheet.><
okay i really managed to make friday the most "fabulous" day of the week.><
AND MY TEMP AS USUAL was damm high, because of unknown reasons,
and i had to retake my temp like 5 times till it was alright..
i didnt really wanan go home since we were going to have cca!
thank god it was okay

but now i really wanna fall sick><
tmr's LA oral presentation,
and my grp is kinda of still chionging now><
really really dead.
and my group is the first to present. what luck..
ahh, hope that everythig goes well tmr,
because if it does not,
i really feel like dying><
MAY LA PRESENTATION BE A HUGE SUCCESS
okay i am really comforting myself,
though it wont be easy, but we'll pull through:D
and i just feel liek there is this whole pile of homework that is like un-done. ><
really really dead.
HOMEWORK PLUS MUGGING FOR BLOCKTEST = HORROR
i really feel like my life is a horror movie.
guess what, it may be.

cheersandloves,
theverryburden-edby HW, xinhui

but the struggles make you stronger,
and the changes make you wise,
and happiness has its own way of taking its sweet time.
life isn't always beautiful, but its a beautiful ride.

this post is here because i havent been uploading:D

2009-07-24T07:24:00.000-07:00

okay I ADMIT IT I AM NOT VERY HARDWORKING at posting(:
last time i posted was like last friday..
oops):
OKAY I PROMISE PROMISE THAT I WILL HAVE A LONGER POST TMR(:
BUT FOR TODAY
I SHALLL JUST SAY THIS ONE THING TO EVERYONE OUT THERE( ESP AVRIL AND LARISA):
I AM NOT GULLIBLE! I HAVE GROWN SMARTTT(: MUAHHAHAHA(:
'worry about your character not your reputaion,
your character is who you are ;
your reputation is who people think you are "
AND I THINK I AM NOT GULLIBLE.:D
i shall end with a BIG THANK YOU TO EVERY SINGLE SOUL OUT THERE:
and so thank you everyone for EVERYTHING <3

cheersandloves,
theprettyhappyxinhui:D

hope is holding on, even when
you know it's time to let go.<3

:D

2009-07-17T05:13:00.000-07:00

confused.tired.worried.HUNGRY(:
1 desire for m and ms:D

just wishing for the best,
may i finish math revision booklet soon. REALLY soon.
and may everything work out(:
;D :D :D
and sorry sorry is NICE:D
and i found this really interesting quote:

"90 people get the swine flu
and everybody wants to wear a mask.
A million people have AIDS
and no one wants to wear a condom."
[interesting isn't it?]

cheersandloves,
hahaha,xinhui(:

sometimes all you need is a hug <3

sick.sick.sick

2009-07-15T02:03:00.000-07:00

okay i am suspecting i am totally sick.-.-
and plus i ALMOST have all the symtoms of H1N1. crap.
and had to go home yesterday because of my temp! 37.8 degrees!
and stayed at home doing math revision booklet.
I AM DEAD. X.X
37.7, 37.8 degrees!
and luckily yuemin had her FEVER PILLS!
THEY WERE PINK!(:
i am like SO DEAD.X.X
and especially now is like the crucial campaginging time):
and H1N1 is like everywhere.
i hope i am nt sick and will be strong and healthy enough to go to sch tmr(:
oh yes and campagin today was absoultely CRAZY.
qian yi was like saying vote for us to every passer-by that she saw,
and yuemin was like....
and that included all the kinda of inncoent sec ones. lols
and they probably think we are crazy. lols. oops?
oh well, hope that everything will turn out to be fine(:
MAY THE FEVER GO GO GO AWAY~!

cheersandloves,
xinhui!( may the fever go away)

The real test of true love is having all the things go wrong but still having a special way to love inspite of all the wrong things that may happen.

SEE. ROMEO AND JULIET, TRUE LOVE DOES NOT MEAN YOU HAVE TO DIE FOR ONE ANOTHER, thats just kinda of dumb.

100th post!

2009-07-10T06:17:00.000-07:00

just realised that this is my 100th post(:
havent exactly been blogging regularly since school started.):
veryvery busy):
and i am really tired.D:
i think yuemin is too..
she is also staying back with me everyday
though she is always the one thats very energectic
and i will be like I AM HUNGRY!><
folding cranes taught me a lesson: NEO XIN HUI IS NOT GENTLE WITH THE PAPER AND SHOULD NEVER FOLD ORIGAMI CAUSE SHE SCREWS UP EVERYTIME><
sorry, i kinda of made a lot of DEAD CRANES><
and yuemin had to help revive it>< oops?
and thanks to every single soul that helped with the folding of cranes(:
esp all the beloved classmates! (: LOVE YOU GUYS A KOT
anyways(: transformers! MUST JIAYOU FOR CAMPAIGN(: (: we're all in this together(:
and we kinda of make EVERYDAY trips to the library to print stuff(:

and school's kinda of really boring):
everyday have to stay back ): I WANNA GO HOME WITH FANGMIN!
MY KFC! apple wannts to eat KFC):):
DONT WORRY, FANGMIN! I SHALL GO HOME NEXT WEEK ( i hope so)
hopes that cca resumes soon(:
really miss having fun with everyone(: esp batchmates!
(: (:
okay, this is a short post,but thats all for now(:

cheersandloves,
thekindaofverytired,xinhui

You can always feel that you're alive when there is love around you.

cry.

2009-07-04T08:06:00.000-07:00

they say that you are immature when you cry.
but don't everyone on this big big big cry.
let me tell you something,
it isn't immature when you cry,
it just isn't.
you can't say you've never cry before can you.
thats right. you can't.

cheersandloves,
xinhui):

i see my vision becoming blur,
and the reality sink in.

update!

2009-06-29T01:11:00.000-07:00

hmm, i am finally gonna update my blog, but this is a rough guide of what have been happening

1) GGS CANRIVAL
IT WAS FUNN(: AND WE MANAGED TO SELL EVERYTHING!!!! HOW FAB IS THAT! (:
SECS TWOS DID A OOD JOB(: batch08 woohoo(:
and thanks to everyone single person that came to support us(:
though i poked my fingers a few times,
ah wells IT WAS WORTH IT:D
okay i am random but oh wells(:
had a fun day buying random stuff with batchmates
dand found out that jiachee is someone with "neihan", or so she claims
and also EVERYONE IS CRAZY ABOUT SS501-stunned-
totally crazy and in love,
and when the song Because i'm stupid came out,
I HEARD SCREAMS. WOW.(:

2) missed school today(:
had missed quite a few lessons today..
and was really sad when i heard that we cahnged art teacher):
I WANNA MRS TAN BACKK):
shes really really nice.
and now we've got a gay teacher who wants us to call him SIR.
-.- and thats according to fangmin
i tink i trust fangmin
and we get to miss the whole day tmr); YIPES(: LOLS
okay thats all for now:D
toodles, I WIL AND SHALL UPDATE SOON(:

cheersandloves,
thekindaofnotinthemmoodforschool,xinhui

ohoh and SNSD has a new SONG TELL ME YOUR WISH/GENIE!

I'd rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not.
Kurt Cobain

new blogskin:D

2009-06-19T09:31:00.000-07:00

i've got a new blogksin, and i'm happy.
have been pretty "productive" i guess(:
but oh wells, i WILL get everything done by this week(:

cheersandloves,
xinhui(:

You're the only one who could make me laugh at absolutely nothing.

productive!productive!

2009-06-16T07:24:00.000-07:00

i MUST complete something productive this week!><

cheersandloves,
XINHUI!

When life throws you lemons ,
Make orange juice and
watch the world wonder how you did it.

(:

2009-06-12T20:14:00.000-07:00

okay went to ting's hse at 8am in the morning..
and started being very guai and started on my hw..
and then halfway through we both got really bored and started talking
and then halfway through the talking we got really bored and started using the com.
and halfway we got bored and finally left the house(:
and LINGTING'S HSE YAKULT IS SUPER NICEEE!!!(:(:
and she says when i come her hse, must stock up on yakult!
yeps thats VERY TRUE(:
and we went all the way to bugis to take neoprint.
and we were being very very retarded.
like seriously.
and lingting was making me laugh like nothing.
and after that we made out way to LOT 1..
for cotton on and we could only have out lunch at 3:00pm
before that we were both complaining non-stop how hungry we were.
and lingting just kept saying must cheng zhu!
and finally got our lunch after wandering around for freaking long..
and we reached our goal!
WE ATE 20 PLATES(:
YIPEEE(:
lols. and lingting sais she could eat 15 plates.
she almost reached though.
then started wandering around
and then we got clipss(:
hurrays(:
clips are nice(::D
yeps and we wandered around
and we finally went homee.
its really funn(:
and when i reached home, i fell asleep on my bed and didnt wake up until 9..
very very shuang(:

cheersandloves,
XINHUI!(:

Sometimes you just have to let them win, because losing the argument is easier than losing them.

FIRST AID!

2009-06-10T05:50:00.000-07:00

I AM NOW AN LICENSED FIRST AIDER.
HOHOHO.
and i can help you!(:

finally passed my firstaid course.
proud of myself(:(:(:

cheersandloves,
thealreadypassherfirstaid,xinhui(:

When you feel like giving up, just remember why you held on for so long.