i'm that girl that is always happy, the one who never has problems and when i do, they don't get to me. everyone sees me as the one they can count on to put a smile on their face cause as far as they know, i always have one on mine. but no one looks any deeper than that. 
 -anonymous

and sometimes no one looks deeper than that.  


cheersandloves, 
smilesmilesmile. xinhui. smile.

broke down,
am just trying to pick the pieces up again.
i guess being cheerful all the time has its price to pay.
and sometimes it just doesnt seem fair anymore.
and sometimes, having a smile 24/7 doesn't really reflect what's within.
but yes, am still gonna stay strong,
for what i have been holding on for so long.

everything lately has just been sad.

and i don't even want to think about it anymore.
dont want to think about it. at all.

at a loss. is prolly a word i would describe the state i am in now.
and if only this was all a dream.
i want desperately to escape reality.
cause it's turning my world upside down.
not gonna think about it.
cause worrying wont help. would it.
i guess i should just not care. i guess. it wouldnt solve anything,
not that anything can be solved.
i should just hang out with myself. and only myself. well. at least people don't get pissed.

i have almost no idea what the world is becoming now.
totally disappointed. 
friends turning into strangers.
people you never knew becoming your best of friends
and i truly wanted to believe in you, but you made me lose my faith.
i guess they say only in an crisis will you know who your friends really are.
and to those that have stayed, thank you.
thank you for being there when i needed you the most.
thank you for tolerating with me all this while.
thank you for all you have done.
thank you.
i know i havent been the best that i can be, 
but you know what, i've tried my best.
and to those friends if you ever need me, i am just a call and a msn convo away.
and to that certain someone,
don't worry so much kay, CHEER UP DUDE!
and you know what, i am really just a call away, let's jiayous for this EOYS and prove them wrong.
prove them that you can do so much so much better.
prove them that you are not what they say.
prove to them that you deserve to do whatever you wnat.
and rmb my logic?
ahhaaha have been trying to convince you since forever, but it jsut wont pull through XD
but yeah, being sad for something that is over won't help.
so why not be happy and do something that is worth your time :D
i know this is gonna be a hard and long and sad period of time,
but you know waht you have 6 weeks of freedom without their intervention or whatsoever,
so look forward to it :D
AND REALLY CHEER UP DUDE:D LOVE YOU ALWAYS!

heh just went for YOG stuff, was so awesome.
I LOVE BEING NEUTRAL XD
heh, and having epic convos with the people around me ,
and all that screaming from audrey and xinyi was truly epic.
everytime the someone scored,
the two people beside me would go ahhhhhh. heh:D
and then i rmb at the end we didnt even know the match ended,
and were like totally clueless, and totally lag,
and like the sudden realisation that thailand won made xinyi and audrey scream,
but that was after everyone had already cheered and whatnots XD
ohohhohoh and thee getting almost lost part when we were trying to find MRT.
three lu chi totally SHOULD NOT stay together at night,
without knowing where to go,
cause in the end all of us will just get lost XD
heh, and i loveeee going home with people staying in cck!
-idk but talking on the bus/MRT is always fun :D-
heh xinyi is my new going home/bus partner after fangmin(:
 hmm thats about alll i guesss :D am feeling rather sleeplyyy noww,

cheersandloves,
xinhui


we'll walk this road together through the storm
whatever weather, cold or warm
just lettin' you know that you're not alone
holla if you feel like you've been down the same road;

fake.so fake.

Best friends hang tough. They don't come with ‘Fragile’ stickers and are not easily scared off, or ticked off. Best friends help you out whenever they can, make time for you even when they don't have any, and trust your friendship enough to say ‘No’. Best friends are cross-your-heart-and-hope-to-die, good-times-and-bad-times, borrow-anything, tell-you-everything, trust-you-with-their-deepest-darkest-secrets, always-and-forever friends.